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{\an8}-Ooh!
- Hey!
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{\an8}-Sorry!
- What the hell?
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Like, what is she doing?
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Madison Maddie Ralph!
You're late.
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Would you hush,
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and make sure
no one comes through that door?
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- I'm half naked.
- I got you.
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Thanks, Deena.
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So, what's your excuse?
You sleep through your alarm,
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your hubby have
some morning wood
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that needed servicing?
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Oh, my God.
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Deena, it's not even ten o'clock
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and you're already
talking about sex.
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Yeah, well, you were supposed
to be here at 09:00 a.m.
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to help me prep ingredients
for Her Majesty's video.
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So, yeah,
I'm a little hot and bothered.
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Emphasis on "bothered."
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I'm really, really sorry, Deena.
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You know I'm never late,
but on my run over here,
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I got totally distracted
by an idea
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for a new dish.
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Maddie Ralph,
when will you learn
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to stay in your place?
The only dishes that you need
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to be thinking about
are the ones
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that need washing.
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Today, I'll be making
cacio e pe...
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I guess we'll have
to take that again.
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All right,
everybody, settle.
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I'll take my own action, Kyle,
in five, four...
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Hi, everyone.
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Welcome to the GourMaybe
Test Kitchen.
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I'm Emily Brown,
but you know that.
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And today, I'll be making
cacio e pepe balls.
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So, this new dish idea of yours
must be pretty special
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to make teacher's pet so tardy.
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It's kind of my take
on the smash burger.
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Vegetarian, of course.
It's a little Mexican,
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- a little Filipino...
- Hmm.
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- ...a little, well, me.
- Sounds amazing.
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Like, well, you.
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When I was jogging over here,
Los Angeles was speaking to me.
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The sun, the street vendors,
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all the crazy stuff
going on right now
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in graphic design.
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And then I smelled the most
beautiful jasmine bush,
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and it all came together.
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And then what,
a bird landed on your shoulder,
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and you sang together
in perfect harmony?
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I swear to God, Maddie,
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it's like you're out
of some modern-day fairy tale.
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You're perfect.
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Trust me, Deena,
I'm anything but.
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♪ Oh, smash me a burger
Between two soft buns ♪
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Oh, my God.
Would you shut up?
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Don't you have some balls
to handle, Emily?
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What would you know
about balls, dyke?
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Play nice.
We've got content to make.
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All right,
everybody, settle.
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Hey! I want this place sparkling
by tomorrow morning, okay?
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- Sir, yes, sir.
- Of course, Zach.
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Emily, you leaving?
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You want me
to walk you to your car?
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Oops.
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I somehow missed these.
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-What?
-You're hilarious.
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I know.
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"Would you two shut up?"
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I don't get it.
What does she have against me?
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You're better looking
and you're better at cooking.
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Deena, she may be a little mean
to me sometimes,
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but Emily Brown
is a genius chef,
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- and a total badass.
- And you're a saint.
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Thanks for the ride, Deena.
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- Oh, Deena, the door's stuck.
- Oh, sorry.
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There you go.
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Thanks.
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- Oh, sorry, sorry.
- It's still...
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There it is.
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It's a little finicky.
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Good night.
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Good night.
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Hey, Maddie!
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Don't you ever get tired
of being such a good girl?
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No.
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Thirteen... ...14...
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Hi, Jake.
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Hello, my beautiful wife.
How was work?
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Emily chewed
my head off again.
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Have you eaten anything yet?
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I had some candy and some chips.
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That's not food, Jake.
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- So, how did I eat it?
- You'll eat anything.
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I'll eat
whatever's in front of me.
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Can I make you some real food?
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After, after. Come here.
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Did we throw away
that mango pickle
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- from the Indian we ordered?
-No.
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And do we still have eggplant?
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You most certainly do.
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Very funny, Jake.
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I need to go try something
in the kitchen.
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Sensual.
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What are you doing?
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What does it look like
I'm doing?
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Filming me
without my consent.
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I'm not gonna post it,
but you could.
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Jake.
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Maddie, I'm hungry. What's next?
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Well, I'm essentially making
a tortang talong,
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which is one
of my favorite Filipino dishes.
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It's kind of like
an eggplant omelet.
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- This is so stupid.
-No, it's not.
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You have no idea
how ravishing you look, Maddie.
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- Likely story.
- Keep going.
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The key to maximum flavor,
like with the smash burger,
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is, well...
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smashing.
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I'm just gonna dredge it
in some egg.
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This dish does have
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major breakfast sandwich-y
hangover vibes.
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And then I'm gonna throw that
in a pan on medium high,
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and almost baste it
in more of that egg mixture.
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Whenever I edit food content,
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the clients always ask me
to make cuts
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right after the loudest sounds.
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Mm-hmm.
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What's wrong, baby?
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I just wanted to make my husband
some dinner,
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and now, I'm in post-production.
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I thought
this was your dream,
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to be the vegetarian Nigella,
or the millennial Alice Waters.
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I'm passionate about food, Jake,
not social media.
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You have a gift, Maddie, okay?
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And you should share it
with the world.
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Do you wanna be
a dishwasher forever?
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Do you want Emily to win?
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I'll work my way up
to the kitchen like she did,
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like all my heroes did.
This is cheating.
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Well, I wanna fix
our roof, okay?
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I wanna have a kid with you,
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and be able
to put it through college.
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Me too, Jake. You know that.
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Then what is this really about?
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I don't...
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I don't like the way I look.
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Are you kidding me?
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That girl right there
is a knockout, Maddie, okay?
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That girl right there
is beautiful.
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If by beautiful,
you mean puffy, then yeah,
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I guess I'm beautiful.
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You sound like your mother.
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- Fuck it.
- Since when do you curse?
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I'll post it tonight.
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I'll post it right now.
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That's my girl. Come here.
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No!
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Six hundred thousand views.
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- What do you mean?
- Six hundred thousand people
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and a few bots shared the video
you posted last night.
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I... I don't believe you.
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You're crazy.
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I'm not crazy.
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That's a six
followed by five zeros.
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Don't tell me
you didn't look.
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I try to stay off that app.
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Let me guess,
you don't have a TV either?
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Oh, my God, Maddie.
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Jake said
the video was doing well,
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- but not that well.
- What does Jake know?
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A lot about editing, mind you.
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And he knows all the tricks
to keep people in a stupor
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on their phones. It's his job.
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It's not Jake's editing
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people are
responding to, Maddie,
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- it's you.
- It's the food.
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The food that you cooked.
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Why won't you let yourself
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be excited about this?
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I guess
I just don't believe it yet.
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Then you better start
believing it.
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Six hundred thousand people
see what I see in you.
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I told you I'm not crazy.
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Oh, my God.
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Well, well, well.
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Looks like
our little dishwasher's
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all grown up.
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- Deena, am I in...
-Maddie Ralph!
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- My office! Now!
- ...trouble?
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When you were hired
at GourMaybe,
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you signed a contract.
Do you remember that?
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Uh, I... I think so.
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Why don't you go ahead
and read some
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of the highlighted clauses here?
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- Page three, paragraph seven.
- Um...
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"All staff are prohibited
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from posting
original food-related content
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to their personal
social media accounts
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unless vetted by,
or in collaboration
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with GourMaybe
Media Incorporated."
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- But I'm just a dishwasher.
- Keep reading!
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"Any recipe developed by staff
while employed at GourMaybe
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is automatically owned
and copyrighted
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by GourMaybe
Media Incorporated."
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Take it. I don't care.
As long as I can keep my job.
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Delete it
from your personal account
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- immediately!
- Of course.
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So that we can release it
as a GourMaybe digital original.
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Okay.
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I'm sure Emily will do
a great job with it.
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No, Maddie.
We want you to be in the video.
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What?
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How would you like to be
a recipe developer
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here at GourMaybe?
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Attention! Ladies and gentlemen,
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I'd like to announce
the newest GourMaybe chef,
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and on-camera talent,
Maddie Ralph, right?
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Come on!
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Right? Can you believe it?
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- Jake! Jake!
- Hey, baby, what's up?
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They're bumping me up
to on-camera.
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What?
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I'm gonna get
to make my own recipes
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and share them with the world.
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I'm gonna get a salary
and a big one at that.
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- We can have a kid.
- I'm a GourMaybe girl.
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It goes like this, okay?
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My girl, then GourMaybe girl.
Come here.
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Um, I should...
I should probably call my mom,
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- and tell her the good news.
- Okay.
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I'm gonna go take a shower.
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Unless you want me there
for moral support.
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No, no, no.
You go rinse off, sweetie.
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- I'll be okay.
- Okay.
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- I'm so proud of you.
- Thank you.
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Man. So cool.
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Hey, Siri?
Uh-huh?
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Call Mom.
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It wasn't the
normal feeling of intuition.
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It was... something colder.
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Yeah.
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Hey, Mom. How you doing?
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Is black mold real?
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I... I... I think so.
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The landlord sent
these two boys over
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with their little
detector thingies.
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I think it's a racket.
I smoked them out anyway.
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One of them kept staring
at my tits.
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The other one
was shaking like a leaf.
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Uh-huh.
256
00:14:09,314 --> 00:14:11,316
Well, um, in terms
of how I'm doing,
257
00:14:11,483 --> 00:14:12,617
I just wanted to call
258
00:14:12,784 --> 00:14:14,019
and tell you
some pretty exciting news.
259
00:14:14,186 --> 00:14:16,087
Oh, golly gee,
what is it?
260
00:14:16,254 --> 00:14:17,856
They're making me
a recipe developer
261
00:14:18,023 --> 00:14:19,491
- at GourMaybe.
262
00:14:19,658 --> 00:14:21,060
I don't know what that means.
263
00:14:21,226 --> 00:14:22,627
Well,
it... it means I'll get
264
00:14:22,794 --> 00:14:25,531
- - a pretty big raise.
- Oh, no fair.
265
00:14:25,697 --> 00:14:27,499
And they're gonna put me
in their digital originals,
266
00:14:27,666 --> 00:14:31,203
which are really
very popular. - Oof.
267
00:14:32,270 --> 00:14:33,338
What, Mom?
268
00:14:34,005 --> 00:14:35,106
Oh, you know
what they say.
269
00:14:35,273 --> 00:14:37,376
The camera adds ten pounds.
270
00:14:46,919 --> 00:14:48,052
You know
how many years it took me
271
00:14:48,219 --> 00:14:49,421
to get over my disorder, Mother?
272
00:14:49,588 --> 00:14:51,056
Please don't talk to me
like that.
273
00:14:51,223 --> 00:14:52,424
I mean, these things
274
00:14:52,557 --> 00:14:54,260
never really go away,
do they, dear?
275
00:14:58,063 --> 00:14:59,965
I should probably go cook dinner
for Jake.
276
00:15:00,833 --> 00:15:03,836
Aw, aren't you
lucky to have a man around.
277
00:15:05,604 --> 00:15:07,872
Goodbye, Mom. I love you.
278
00:15:08,039 --> 00:15:11,377
Ah, this damn knee.
279
00:15:47,345 --> 00:15:48,613
I'm hungry.
280
00:15:49,147 --> 00:15:51,216
I think we're out
of that small batch white miso.
281
00:15:51,750 --> 00:15:53,418
I'll order us
some Fig and Mortar.
282
00:15:53,918 --> 00:15:55,487
Get a bottle of natty wine.
283
00:15:55,987 --> 00:15:57,488
We gotta celebrate
your promotion.
284
00:15:57,989 --> 00:15:59,558
No, no, I'm happy to cook.
285
00:16:00,659 --> 00:16:01,961
What'd she say this time?
286
00:16:04,162 --> 00:16:05,030
She just...
287
00:16:06,131 --> 00:16:08,499
She just couldn't be happy
for me, that's all.
288
00:16:08,666 --> 00:16:10,769
Baby, come here, come here.
289
00:16:11,669 --> 00:16:14,006
Come here.
290
00:16:47,005 --> 00:16:47,873
No.
291
00:17:07,559 --> 00:17:12,231
Oh, my God.
292
00:17:13,231 --> 00:17:14,633
Oh, my God.
293
00:17:16,568 --> 00:17:19,738
Fuck me, Jake. Fuck me, Jake.
294
00:17:32,184 --> 00:17:34,285
God damn it, Maddie.
I'm close already.
295
00:17:34,452 --> 00:17:36,587
- You want me to pull out?
- No. No!
296
00:17:46,999 --> 00:17:50,535
Oh, fuck.
Maddie! That's a good girl!
297
00:17:50,702 --> 00:17:52,370
That's a good girl!
298
00:17:52,537 --> 00:17:55,773
You're perfect.
299
00:18:10,121 --> 00:18:16,395
Mm! Oh, my God.
The mango-Sriracha aioli. Mm.
300
00:18:17,395 --> 00:18:19,598
And the crispy jasmine rice trio
301
00:18:20,098 --> 00:18:22,334
adds just the right amount
of crunch.
302
00:18:23,769 --> 00:18:25,737
And I don't miss
the meat.
303
00:18:27,739 --> 00:18:29,708
- Feel good, Maddie?
- I think so.
304
00:18:29,874 --> 00:18:31,310
Then that's a cut.
305
00:18:31,476 --> 00:18:34,146
And that's a wrap on Maddie's
first GourMaybe video!
306
00:18:34,313 --> 00:18:36,882
Yeah!
307
00:18:37,049 --> 00:18:40,418
You're a natural, Maddie.
You tore, you ate.
308
00:18:40,585 --> 00:18:42,153
Oh, thanks, Kyle.
309
00:18:42,320 --> 00:18:43,621
Oh, she ate all right.
310
00:18:44,189 --> 00:18:45,357
Didn't your mother
ever teach you
311
00:18:45,524 --> 00:18:47,259
not to speak
with your mouth full?
312
00:18:48,192 --> 00:18:49,360
Jesus fucking Christ, Zach,
313
00:18:49,527 --> 00:18:51,096
you need to order
some small aprons.
314
00:18:51,729 --> 00:18:52,731
For me, at least.
315
00:18:52,898 --> 00:18:54,366
Get me
to three million subscribers,
316
00:18:54,533 --> 00:18:56,201
and then we'll talk.
317
00:18:58,803 --> 00:19:01,173
So, you basically input
all your trauma,
318
00:19:01,340 --> 00:19:03,108
and it links you up
with a therapist.
319
00:19:03,275 --> 00:19:04,976
And it's all over FaceTime?
320
00:19:05,143 --> 00:19:06,912
I, like, don't even leave
my bed.
321
00:19:07,379 --> 00:19:08,846
Does it help
with executive functioning?
322
00:19:09,013 --> 00:19:11,216
One hundred percent.
323
00:19:11,382 --> 00:19:14,219
Okay, you convinced me.
I'll get the app.
324
00:19:50,355 --> 00:19:52,957
Huh. Holy fucking shit.
Maddie, you killed it.
325
00:19:53,124 --> 00:19:55,660
- A star is born.
- Aw, thanks, Deena.
326
00:19:55,827 --> 00:19:57,195
You didn't think I was awkward?
327
00:19:57,362 --> 00:19:59,964
What? You were totally yourself,
unlike fake-ass Emily.
328
00:20:00,131 --> 00:20:03,035
- Hey, it's not a competition.
-Oh, right, right.
329
00:20:07,405 --> 00:20:08,806
Deena, can I ask you a question?
330
00:20:08,973 --> 00:20:12,377
- Shoot.
- How do you get so toned?
331
00:20:12,544 --> 00:20:14,145
You've been checking me out?
332
00:20:14,278 --> 00:20:17,515
- I'm just noticing.
-I'll tell you.
333
00:20:17,682 --> 00:20:19,818
I go to this queer gym.
It's radically inclusive.
334
00:20:19,985 --> 00:20:22,421
None of that
toxic gym bro stuff.
335
00:20:22,587 --> 00:20:24,255
Actually, I'm going
to this crazy movement class
336
00:20:24,422 --> 00:20:25,557
after work. Come with me.
337
00:20:25,724 --> 00:20:29,694
And I would be allowed?
Just... some ally?
338
00:20:29,861 --> 00:20:31,429
Trust me, Maddie.
339
00:20:31,596 --> 00:20:33,598
Everyone there
would really like you.
340
00:20:46,411 --> 00:20:47,279
Hi.
341
00:21:01,259 --> 00:21:02,627
Hi!
342
00:21:02,794 --> 00:21:04,962
- Hey, look who it is!
- Hey!
343
00:21:05,129 --> 00:21:07,498
Hi. Everyone's so friendly here.
344
00:21:07,665 --> 00:21:08,733
Why wouldn't they be?
345
00:21:08,900 --> 00:21:11,036
We have a new friend
joining the class today.
346
00:21:11,203 --> 00:21:13,871
Let's give Maddie
a big queer welcome.
347
00:21:18,476 --> 00:21:21,647
All right, let's hit it.
Five, six, seven, uh!
348
00:21:21,813 --> 00:21:24,249
- All right, let's get moving.
-Whoo!
349
00:21:25,216 --> 00:21:27,118
- Come on, Maddie.
- But I don't know the moves.
350
00:21:27,285 --> 00:21:29,621
- Your body does.
- Move those hips. Let's go.
351
00:21:30,121 --> 00:21:30,989
Okay.
352
00:21:31,623 --> 00:21:34,926
Hip, hip, hip, hip.
Let's go, let's go.
353
00:21:35,092 --> 00:21:37,929
Roll shoulders, roll shoulders.
And back, and back.
354
00:21:38,096 --> 00:21:41,833
And right, and left.
And let's go faster.
355
00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:44,969
And right, left, right.
Let's pump that chest.
356
00:21:45,136 --> 00:21:48,973
Chest, chest, chest.
Double time. Uh, uh!
357
00:21:49,140 --> 00:21:50,541
Show me what you got!
Show me what you got!
358
00:21:50,708 --> 00:21:52,176
Show me, show me,
show me what you got!
359
00:21:52,343 --> 00:21:54,279
Hey, hey, hey, hey!
360
00:21:54,812 --> 00:21:56,347
Mm! Oh, my God!
361
00:21:56,514 --> 00:21:58,250
Aw, look at that stretch!
362
00:21:59,718 --> 00:22:00,619
Mm!
363
00:22:06,791 --> 00:22:10,796
No!
364
00:22:14,299 --> 00:22:17,469
Oh, my God!
No! Oh, my God!
365
00:22:17,635 --> 00:22:18,703
I swear by this.
366
00:22:18,870 --> 00:22:20,839
This is amazing!
I love Fly By Jing.
367
00:22:34,285 --> 00:22:35,654
Jake! Oh, my God!
368
00:22:35,821 --> 00:22:38,389
I feel so bad.
I've never done this.
369
00:22:39,123 --> 00:22:41,159
-Maddie!
-Why did she get to...
370
00:22:43,328 --> 00:22:44,730
It's a friend of mine.
371
00:22:52,771 --> 00:22:55,673
- What the hell?
- Everything okay, Kyle?
372
00:22:55,840 --> 00:22:57,875
I lightly dented
some camera equipment,
373
00:22:58,042 --> 00:22:59,310
and they deducted
the repair cost
374
00:22:59,443 --> 00:23:00,612
from my paycheck.
375
00:23:00,778 --> 00:23:02,614
They can't do that.
Let me take it up with Zach.
376
00:23:03,748 --> 00:23:06,117
Wow. Thanks, Maddie.
377
00:23:06,684 --> 00:23:09,153
Oh, come on, Zach.
378
00:23:09,320 --> 00:23:11,857
She's such a try-hard
Suzy Homemaker.
379
00:23:12,023 --> 00:23:13,024
What can I say?
380
00:23:13,191 --> 00:23:14,526
The unwashed masses love her.
381
00:23:14,693 --> 00:23:16,728
Her first video got
1.5 million views,
382
00:23:16,894 --> 00:23:18,329
and it got written up
by Here We Go magazine.
383
00:23:18,462 --> 00:23:20,765
Yeah, but did you read
the comments?
384
00:23:20,931 --> 00:23:24,235
"Go easy on the aioli, Maddie."
"Maddie the Fatty."
385
00:23:26,437 --> 00:23:27,872
God, you're such
a fucking bitch.
386
00:23:28,039 --> 00:23:29,107
I love it.
387
00:23:29,273 --> 00:23:30,642
It makes me so fucking hard.
388
00:23:32,711 --> 00:23:35,813
No.
389
00:23:54,599 --> 00:23:55,467
Jake?
390
00:23:57,635 --> 00:23:58,637
Jake?
391
00:27:14,799 --> 00:27:16,834
- Maddie, are you okay?
- Not much.
392
00:27:17,501 --> 00:27:18,803
I didn't know you were home.
393
00:27:20,505 --> 00:27:21,573
Did you puke?
394
00:27:24,776 --> 00:27:25,977
I'm pregnant.
395
00:27:30,014 --> 00:27:30,915
What?
396
00:27:36,287 --> 00:27:37,855
Now, ideally, you're going
for a Gruyere,
397
00:27:38,022 --> 00:27:39,457
a Fontina, a Taleggio,
398
00:27:39,624 --> 00:27:41,793
but in a pinch, you could use
Monterey Jack,
399
00:27:41,959 --> 00:27:45,130
Colby Jack, Pepper Jack...
400
00:27:46,331 --> 00:27:48,032
We'll hold, I guess.
401
00:27:48,198 --> 00:27:51,269
And this is Emily.
She put GourMaybe on the map.
402
00:27:51,436 --> 00:27:53,271
It's really nice
to meet you guys.
403
00:27:53,438 --> 00:27:55,907
I'm, um, a huge fan
of the show.
404
00:27:56,074 --> 00:27:57,108
What are you making?
405
00:27:57,275 --> 00:27:59,177
So, these are
crispy potato skins
406
00:27:59,344 --> 00:28:01,145
with a Cool Ranch Labneh dip.
407
00:28:01,312 --> 00:28:04,281
Yeah, we're doing a series
on elevated game day snacks.
408
00:28:04,849 --> 00:28:06,751
-Do you mind?
- Go for it.
409
00:28:10,755 --> 00:28:14,191
It's fun.
410
00:28:14,358 --> 00:28:16,060
You certainly don't skimp
on flavor.
411
00:28:16,694 --> 00:28:17,829
No, she doesn't.
412
00:28:19,497 --> 00:28:21,699
As someone who actually watches
a lot of sports,
413
00:28:21,866 --> 00:28:23,668
this assignment
came easily to me.
414
00:28:25,002 --> 00:28:27,105
And a guy's girl. I love it.
415
00:28:31,476 --> 00:28:32,877
Psst.
416
00:28:33,377 --> 00:28:34,712
You sure
you wanna be caught talking
417
00:28:34,879 --> 00:28:38,049
- to some lowly dishwasher?
- Deena! Who are those people?
418
00:28:38,216 --> 00:28:40,684
Oh, the executive producers
of The Boar.
419
00:28:40,851 --> 00:28:42,887
I just watched
this talk they gave at South By on YouTube.
420
00:28:43,054 --> 00:28:45,123
- They are total geniuses.
- It's effervescent.
421
00:28:45,323 --> 00:28:46,224
The Boar?
422
00:28:47,525 --> 00:28:48,659
You gotta be kidding me, Maddie.
423
00:28:48,993 --> 00:28:50,595
No, I'm not kidding you, Deena,
and you better tell me fast
424
00:28:50,762 --> 00:28:52,096
because they're coming over here
right now.
425
00:28:52,263 --> 00:28:53,431
Oh, The Boar is
about a restaurant,
426
00:28:53,598 --> 00:28:55,066
but really,
it's about so much more.
427
00:28:55,233 --> 00:28:56,934
It's also the hottest show
on TV right now.
428
00:28:57,101 --> 00:28:59,270
Oh, that's right.
You don't have a TV.
429
00:29:01,906 --> 00:29:04,108
And this is Maddie,
our newest chef,
430
00:29:04,275 --> 00:29:05,877
but already gaining
quite a following.
431
00:29:06,044 --> 00:29:07,144
Hi.
432
00:29:07,745 --> 00:29:08,947
And what do we have here?
433
00:29:09,113 --> 00:29:12,082
This is a Rotel dip,
but made with French techniques.
434
00:29:12,249 --> 00:29:13,518
How is that possible?
435
00:29:13,685 --> 00:29:16,821
Well, instead of using Velveeta,
I start with the béchamel,
436
00:29:16,988 --> 00:29:19,123
and slowly incorporate
quality cheeses.
437
00:29:19,723 --> 00:29:24,829
Damn. She's good.
438
00:29:25,797 --> 00:29:26,931
And her dip's good too.
439
00:29:32,403 --> 00:29:33,538
What the hell was that?
440
00:29:34,072 --> 00:29:36,774
Oh, sorry, Maddie,
what the "heck" was that?
441
00:29:36,941 --> 00:29:38,710
Sit down. Let me explain.
442
00:29:40,011 --> 00:29:42,013
The Boar is looking to hire
their new culinary producer
443
00:29:42,180 --> 00:29:43,147
for their sixth season.
444
00:29:43,314 --> 00:29:44,948
And Disney wants FX
to pull somebody
445
00:29:45,115 --> 00:29:46,183
from the Condé Nast talent pool.
446
00:29:46,383 --> 00:29:47,952
Culinary producer?
447
00:29:48,119 --> 00:29:49,988
They need a new chef
to make a real menu
448
00:29:50,155 --> 00:29:52,089
for the fake restaurant
on the show.
449
00:29:52,256 --> 00:29:53,724
But they need somebody
with a vision.
450
00:29:53,858 --> 00:29:55,426
Somebody that's a star.
451
00:29:55,593 --> 00:29:57,594
They're gonna document
the whole thing with BTS content
452
00:29:57,761 --> 00:29:58,996
and pair that with each episode.
453
00:29:59,163 --> 00:30:02,500
But it's gonna be
very highbrow, cinematic AF,
454
00:30:02,667 --> 00:30:05,736
chef's table.
So, you know, be camera ready.
455
00:30:05,870 --> 00:30:07,071
So, it's down to us?
456
00:30:07,238 --> 00:30:08,640
Yeah, what about all the other
amazing chefs here?
457
00:30:08,773 --> 00:30:09,940
I submitted you two...
458
00:30:10,107 --> 00:30:11,876
...'cause you're
the two biggest stars I got.
459
00:30:12,843 --> 00:30:13,878
And admittedly...
460
00:30:15,679 --> 00:30:17,615
I like to watch you two
go at it.
461
00:30:40,137 --> 00:30:41,840
Someone's got
a little baby bump.
462
00:30:44,342 --> 00:30:45,509
What?
463
00:30:46,043 --> 00:30:47,912
You're just a little fuller
in the tummy.
464
00:30:48,078 --> 00:30:49,180
It's beautiful.
465
00:30:54,885 --> 00:30:56,320
Hey, I was thinking
we could pig out
466
00:30:56,487 --> 00:30:59,357
on something stanky tonight,
like Thai street food,
467
00:30:59,524 --> 00:31:01,258
and that new place
from Frogtown.
468
00:31:03,094 --> 00:31:05,096
We haven't really
celebrated yet, you know?
469
00:31:06,898 --> 00:31:09,200
Hmm.
470
00:31:17,909 --> 00:31:19,577
Maddie, we'll be honest,
we're very excited about you.
471
00:31:19,743 --> 00:31:22,279
You have quite a few fans
over here at The Boar.
472
00:31:22,479 --> 00:31:23,915
We know
you're just starting out,
473
00:31:24,081 --> 00:31:26,016
but your food already has
a real identity.
474
00:31:26,183 --> 00:31:28,086
It's both youthful and timeless.
475
00:31:28,252 --> 00:31:30,054
It's full of verve,
but never pretentious.
476
00:31:30,220 --> 00:31:33,357
It sends a message,
and it tastes fucking good.
477
00:31:33,524 --> 00:31:36,260
Thank you, guys.
That... That really means a lot.
478
00:31:36,427 --> 00:31:38,563
We wanna know what your vision
for season six would be.
479
00:31:38,730 --> 00:31:40,097
Put together a presentation
of sorts,
480
00:31:40,264 --> 00:31:42,399
but take that
to mean whatever you want.
481
00:31:42,566 --> 00:31:45,603
Cook for us, take us out,
make a short film, a painting.
482
00:31:45,770 --> 00:31:46,971
We don't care.
483
00:31:47,138 --> 00:31:48,439
The important thing is
to tell a story.
484
00:31:48,606 --> 00:31:51,242
What?
485
00:31:52,043 --> 00:31:54,445
It's just that
ever since I was a little girl,
486
00:31:54,612 --> 00:31:56,981
I always felt like cooking was
a form of storytelling.
487
00:31:58,316 --> 00:32:00,852
- You're speaking our language.
- Cool.
488
00:32:02,853 --> 00:32:04,188
Sorry to interrupt
the circle jerk,
489
00:32:04,355 --> 00:32:06,758
but did you guys get any word
from Disney on Maddie's chances?
490
00:32:06,925 --> 00:32:08,893
Well, they are
a little concerned
491
00:32:09,059 --> 00:32:11,562
- about her... stats.
- What do you mean?
492
00:32:11,729 --> 00:32:13,230
Your socials are weak.
493
00:32:13,397 --> 00:32:15,899
We need to beef up your presence
in the digital sphere.
494
00:32:16,066 --> 00:32:17,101
You have
some fierce competition.
495
00:32:17,268 --> 00:32:20,604
That's one word for her.
I... I... I mean, "it."
496
00:32:26,477 --> 00:32:28,946
Strong! Power!
497
00:32:29,580 --> 00:32:32,350
Confidence! Let's go!
498
00:32:33,317 --> 00:32:35,286
- Let's freestyle now.
- What?
499
00:32:35,453 --> 00:32:36,587
Step, step, hit and hit!
500
00:32:36,754 --> 00:32:38,288
Step, step, hit and hit!
501
00:32:38,455 --> 00:32:42,026
Your personality comes out here!
502
00:32:42,193 --> 00:32:43,428
Yeah, pump it, pump it.
503
00:32:43,594 --> 00:32:44,828
- You like that?
- Yeah, yeah.
504
00:32:45,028 --> 00:32:46,831
And pump, pump. Let's go! Pump!
505
00:32:47,665 --> 00:32:49,733
Pump, pump!
And whack it, and whack it!
506
00:32:49,900 --> 00:32:52,503
- Come on, Maddie, you baddie!
- Sorry.
507
00:32:54,472 --> 00:32:56,440
Thank you guys so much!
508
00:32:56,607 --> 00:33:01,512
Y'all hot right now?
509
00:33:01,679 --> 00:33:03,347
Maddie, remember,
it's not about getting it right,
510
00:33:03,514 --> 00:33:05,383
or being the best in class
all the time, girl.
511
00:33:05,583 --> 00:33:07,285
It's about letting the groove
move through your body,
512
00:33:07,452 --> 00:33:09,286
going with the flow,
and having fun.
513
00:33:09,453 --> 00:33:11,289
Groove and flow, got it.
514
00:33:11,456 --> 00:33:13,391
You forgot fun, mama.
515
00:33:13,591 --> 00:33:15,192
Maddie, have you watched
The Boar yet?
516
00:33:15,325 --> 00:33:16,828
-No.
- You can use my Hulu login.
517
00:33:16,995 --> 00:33:18,195
I don't care
if you know my password.
518
00:33:18,362 --> 00:33:19,663
I haven't yet.
519
00:33:19,830 --> 00:33:21,832
I feel like I was just getting
my bearings at GourMaybe,
520
00:33:21,999 --> 00:33:23,634
and now I'm supposed
to fight like hell
521
00:33:23,801 --> 00:33:25,870
to be some food stylist
on a TV show?
522
00:33:26,036 --> 00:33:27,038
Oh, my God.
523
00:33:27,171 --> 00:33:28,206
Maddie, what they're doing
over there
524
00:33:28,373 --> 00:33:30,841
is so much more
than just food styling.
525
00:33:31,008 --> 00:33:33,878
Totally. It all sounds
so elevated and cool.
526
00:33:34,044 --> 00:33:35,713
I guess I just don't wanna get
my hopes up.
527
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:37,682
Oh, you'll understand it
once you watch it.
528
00:33:37,848 --> 00:33:39,316
-Uh-huh.
- We could binge it together.
529
00:33:39,483 --> 00:33:41,218
Aw, thanks,
but Jake would kill me
530
00:33:41,385 --> 00:33:43,221
if I didn't watch it with him.
He loves The Boar.
531
00:33:43,387 --> 00:33:45,522
Oh, right. Jake.
532
00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:50,894
- Deena, are you okay?
- God.
533
00:33:51,061 --> 00:33:52,163
You know, Maddie,
since your promotion,
534
00:33:52,329 --> 00:33:53,631
it's like you don't have time
for me anymore.
535
00:33:53,798 --> 00:33:55,399
Like, you forgot about
all the little people.
536
00:33:55,566 --> 00:33:57,201
Deena...
...I didn't choose
537
00:33:57,368 --> 00:33:58,302
any of this.
538
00:33:58,436 --> 00:33:59,536
I feel
so out of control.
539
00:33:59,703 --> 00:34:01,105
Uh, it's all just happening
to me.
540
00:34:01,272 --> 00:34:02,573
Uh-huh. Sure about that?
541
00:34:03,174 --> 00:34:05,409
- What are you trying to say?
- It's funny.
542
00:34:05,576 --> 00:34:06,977
I really thought
we were best friends,
543
00:34:07,110 --> 00:34:09,446
but I guess you always saw me
as more of a coworker,
544
00:34:09,646 --> 00:34:12,683
- an occupational hazard.
- Of course we're friends.
545
00:34:13,351 --> 00:34:14,718
Deena, aren't you gonna
give me a ride?
546
00:34:14,885 --> 00:34:16,554
We always carpool
after dance class.
547
00:34:16,721 --> 00:34:18,022
Yeah.
548
00:34:18,189 --> 00:34:20,257
Do you mind catching a lift?
You're kinda out of the way.
549
00:34:36,907 --> 00:34:39,310
Hey, hey, hey.
550
00:34:39,477 --> 00:34:40,545
It's just me.
551
00:34:40,711 --> 00:34:42,446
Jake, that was scary.
What are you doing?
552
00:34:42,613 --> 00:34:46,216
I know. I'm sorry.
I have a surprise for you.
553
00:34:46,383 --> 00:34:47,451
- Come on.
- Okay.
554
00:34:51,221 --> 00:34:52,156
I got you.
555
00:34:55,158 --> 00:34:56,060
Look.
556
00:34:57,427 --> 00:34:58,863
A buddy of mine from Middlebury
557
00:34:59,029 --> 00:35:01,766
makes these really dope replicas
of Amish furniture.
558
00:35:02,266 --> 00:35:04,669
He made this for his kid
and they don't need it anymore.
559
00:35:05,336 --> 00:35:06,471
Isn't it beautiful?
560
00:35:07,738 --> 00:35:11,108
It's... It's a little early.
561
00:35:12,042 --> 00:35:14,444
I'm sorry.
I guess I'm just excited.
562
00:35:15,178 --> 00:35:16,613
Am I the only one here that is?
563
00:35:16,780 --> 00:35:18,049
Of course
I'm excited, Jake,
564
00:35:18,216 --> 00:35:20,184
but people normally wait
to get to the first trimester
565
00:35:20,351 --> 00:35:22,486
before they start making
these kinds of decisions.
566
00:35:22,653 --> 00:35:24,488
It could so easily go wrong,
you know?
567
00:35:24,655 --> 00:35:25,890
Why would you say that?
568
00:35:28,159 --> 00:35:29,460
What is that?
569
00:35:29,627 --> 00:35:31,094
I was gonna tell you.
Your mom signed us up
570
00:35:31,261 --> 00:35:32,964
for this monthly
frozen meat thing.
571
00:35:33,130 --> 00:35:35,466
- That bitch.
- I'll eat it, okay?
572
00:35:35,633 --> 00:35:37,368
Throw the steaks away
right now, Jake.
573
00:35:37,535 --> 00:35:39,136
But...
...you're so passionate
574
00:35:39,303 --> 00:35:40,837
about reducing
food waste, Maddie.
575
00:35:41,004 --> 00:35:46,944
I don't eat meat!
576
00:35:50,781 --> 00:35:52,683
Hi, guys. It's Maddie Ralph here
577
00:35:52,850 --> 00:35:54,685
in the sunny
GourMaybe Test Kitchen.
578
00:35:54,852 --> 00:35:57,387
Today, I am determined
to prove to you
579
00:35:57,554 --> 00:36:00,457
how much caramelization
you can get out of tofu.
580
00:36:00,624 --> 00:36:02,025
Now, when people...
581
00:36:02,192 --> 00:36:03,160
Take your time.
582
00:36:03,327 --> 00:36:05,162
Kyle, why don't we, um,
start over?
583
00:36:05,796 --> 00:36:07,298
Okay, can everyone
please keep their work
584
00:36:07,465 --> 00:36:08,599
to a low hum?
585
00:36:08,933 --> 00:36:09,967
Yeah, Kyle, it's fine.
We'll just take it again.
586
00:36:10,167 --> 00:36:11,635
Oh, my God,
I'm so fucking stupid.
587
00:36:11,802 --> 00:36:12,936
No, you're fine, Kyle.
588
00:36:13,103 --> 00:36:14,538
Were we being too loud
for you, Maddie?
589
00:36:15,238 --> 00:36:17,775
No, I actually wanted
to redo my intro anyway,
590
00:36:17,942 --> 00:36:20,578
so...
Hi, I'm Maddie.
591
00:36:20,778 --> 00:36:23,113
- Nice to meet you.
- Oh, I know who you are.
592
00:36:23,246 --> 00:36:26,117
My friends and I are obsessed
with your recipes.
593
00:36:26,250 --> 00:36:28,553
I'm Erin.
I'm the new you, I guess.
594
00:36:28,719 --> 00:36:30,221
Or the old you?
595
00:36:32,156 --> 00:36:34,358
Hi, Erin,
thank you for your kind words.
596
00:36:34,525 --> 00:36:36,059
Dishwashing can be
thankless sometimes,
597
00:36:36,226 --> 00:36:39,330
but remember that this company
could not exist without you.
598
00:36:39,497 --> 00:36:40,363
I would know.
599
00:36:40,530 --> 00:36:41,665
Thanks, Maddie.
600
00:36:42,433 --> 00:36:44,134
- I think we should...
- Sorry to overshare.
601
00:36:44,267 --> 00:36:45,336
- What's up?
-But...
602
00:36:45,502 --> 00:36:47,705
I used to have
a really disordered relationship
603
00:36:47,872 --> 00:36:49,907
to food. I mean, who doesn't?
604
00:36:51,842 --> 00:36:52,976
Totally.
605
00:36:53,243 --> 00:36:55,212
And I just have to say
it's really fucking refreshing
606
00:36:55,379 --> 00:36:57,448
to see a woman
with an actually healthy body
607
00:36:57,615 --> 00:36:59,150
making food content right now.
608
00:37:01,719 --> 00:37:02,987
What do you mean by "healthy"?
609
00:37:03,153 --> 00:37:06,924
You know, healthy, normal.
Like, not scary thin.
610
00:37:07,090 --> 00:37:09,159
It's badass.
611
00:37:11,394 --> 00:37:14,164
Kyle, can we take lunch now?
I'll finish this later.
612
00:37:15,065 --> 00:37:17,868
Okay.
613
00:37:25,309 --> 00:37:27,945
What's the matter?
614
00:37:28,946 --> 00:37:30,380
Zach's spunk taste weird?
615
00:37:31,181 --> 00:37:34,118
- I wouldn't know.
- What's that supposed to mean?
616
00:37:43,927 --> 00:37:47,932
Emily! You want a ride?
617
00:37:50,501 --> 00:37:51,736
No.
618
00:37:55,139 --> 00:37:57,274
Hey, Erin, I've got those.
You go home.
619
00:37:57,808 --> 00:38:00,344
What? I... I could never let you
wash these.
620
00:38:00,511 --> 00:38:03,414
To be honest,
I... I kind of miss it.
621
00:38:04,314 --> 00:38:05,816
If you say so.
622
00:38:14,358 --> 00:38:15,793
Deena...
623
00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:17,528
...I don't know
what I did wrong,
624
00:38:17,694 --> 00:38:19,830
but I could really use
a best friend right now.
625
00:38:21,331 --> 00:38:23,334
Best friends don't keep secrets.
626
00:38:23,967 --> 00:38:24,902
What?
627
00:38:26,971 --> 00:38:28,372
You're hiding things from me.
628
00:38:29,339 --> 00:38:30,274
It's hurting you,
629
00:38:30,408 --> 00:38:32,777
and it's making me look
like a fool.
630
00:38:35,712 --> 00:38:38,281
- Fuck!
-Deena, I promise
631
00:38:38,448 --> 00:38:40,350
I'm not hiding anything
from you.
632
00:38:40,517 --> 00:38:42,285
I just really, really need
your help.
633
00:38:42,786 --> 00:38:45,189
My presentation for The Boar
is in three weeks,
634
00:38:45,356 --> 00:38:46,490
and I swear to God,
635
00:38:46,791 --> 00:38:49,459
it's like I can't even remember
what I... like about food.
636
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:52,563
- Maddie.
- Just come over this weekend,
637
00:38:52,730 --> 00:38:54,698
and let's cook together
like the old days.
638
00:38:54,865 --> 00:38:57,335
You can be my sous.
639
00:38:58,836 --> 00:39:02,038
Yes, chef.
640
00:39:02,205 --> 00:39:06,743
Oh, my God, Deena!
641
00:39:06,943 --> 00:39:10,981
Deena! Stop!
642
00:39:20,991 --> 00:39:23,761
More time.
643
00:39:34,839 --> 00:39:36,240
How's it looking?
644
00:39:37,141 --> 00:39:39,176
Oh!
645
00:39:54,558 --> 00:39:57,394
-Mm!
- Oh, my God!
646
00:39:57,894 --> 00:39:59,163
God, you know
I don't like to throw
647
00:39:59,330 --> 00:40:01,765
this word around, Maddie,
but you really are a genius.
648
00:40:01,932 --> 00:40:03,567
The Boar would be lucky
to have you.
649
00:40:03,734 --> 00:40:04,869
It was pretty good, wasn't it?
650
00:40:05,035 --> 00:40:07,237
Oh.
651
00:40:08,038 --> 00:40:09,640
- Oh, shit.
- Who is it?
652
00:40:10,207 --> 00:40:12,409
This married chick I'm banging.
I'm driving her crazy.
653
00:40:12,576 --> 00:40:13,977
Do you mind if I take this
on your porch?
654
00:40:17,881 --> 00:40:19,683
You really are
something else, Deena.
655
00:40:20,350 --> 00:40:21,385
Hey, baby, what's wrong?
656
00:40:37,901 --> 00:40:40,837
But I don't like stealing away
for a measly taste.
657
00:40:41,037 --> 00:40:42,373
I want all of you.
658
00:40:44,074 --> 00:40:45,776
I want that too.
It's just I'm married.
659
00:40:47,378 --> 00:40:50,747
- - You're driving me crazy.
- How about a weekend in Ojai?
660
00:40:51,414 --> 00:40:54,151
You, me, natural wine, my strap.
661
00:40:54,318 --> 00:40:55,219
Deena's girlfriend: Fuck.
662
00:40:57,688 --> 00:40:59,757
Why don't we talk about this
in-person?
663
00:40:59,924 --> 00:41:02,025
- Deena's girlfriend: Deena...
- I can swing by tonight.
664
00:41:02,659 --> 00:41:04,828
Deena's girlfriend: You know
exactly what will happen.
665
00:41:04,995 --> 00:41:06,196
I'm free at 09:00 a.m.
666
00:41:06,396 --> 00:41:07,264
Deena's girlfriend:
But what about my schedule?
667
00:41:09,433 --> 00:41:11,802
What's going on in here?
668
00:41:11,969 --> 00:41:13,637
I think I have food poisoning.
669
00:41:15,305 --> 00:41:17,641
Maddie, I know you,
and I know when you're lying.
670
00:41:17,808 --> 00:41:20,410
- Deena, I'm not lying.
- And you know me,
671
00:41:20,544 --> 00:41:22,480
and you know
I hate being lied to.
672
00:41:25,849 --> 00:41:28,152
Hey, hey.
673
00:41:29,486 --> 00:41:32,189
It's okay, I'm here.
674
00:41:32,356 --> 00:41:34,825
I had stuff around food
when I was younger,
675
00:41:34,992 --> 00:41:36,694
and it's coming up again.
676
00:41:38,261 --> 00:41:39,429
I'm gonna get it under control.
677
00:41:39,563 --> 00:41:41,732
Just please,
please don't anyone, okay?
678
00:41:41,899 --> 00:41:43,634
Oh, Maddie.
679
00:41:44,201 --> 00:41:46,337
Oh, Maddie,
your secret is safe with me.
680
00:41:53,911 --> 00:41:56,847
I should
probably brush my teeth.
681
00:41:59,349 --> 00:42:00,217
Yeah.
682
00:42:03,220 --> 00:42:04,855
You know
they make a tool for that,
683
00:42:05,022 --> 00:42:06,289
where you can get
the little timelines off
684
00:42:06,456 --> 00:42:07,758
in about five seconds.
685
00:42:07,925 --> 00:42:09,059
Of course they do.
686
00:42:10,560 --> 00:42:12,295
So, Maddie, I'm dying to know
what's on the menu
687
00:42:12,462 --> 00:42:13,997
for season six of The Boar.
688
00:42:14,164 --> 00:42:16,199
Uh, let's talk about it
later, Kyle.
689
00:42:16,833 --> 00:42:19,302
Oh, come on, Maddie.
I'll say what I'm doing.
690
00:42:19,469 --> 00:42:20,671
It's good sportsmanship.
691
00:42:22,339 --> 00:42:25,241
Okay, um,
I'm hosting the producers
692
00:42:25,408 --> 00:42:28,712
at me and Jake's,
and I'm cooking from the heart.
693
00:42:28,879 --> 00:42:32,015
I'm hoping to push the show
in a more Veggie Four direction.
694
00:42:32,182 --> 00:42:35,518
- Period.
- What about you, Emily?
695
00:42:36,052 --> 00:42:39,022
I'm taking them to my favorite
hole-in-the-wall spots in K-Town
696
00:42:39,156 --> 00:42:41,424
for a tour of the best
Korean bar food in L.A.
697
00:42:41,958 --> 00:42:45,495
- So cool, so Emily.
- It's whatever.
698
00:42:45,629 --> 00:42:48,332
Time to beef up
those socials, baby.
699
00:42:48,498 --> 00:42:50,100
We are live.
700
00:42:50,734 --> 00:42:52,168
Hi, guys. It's Maddie,
701
00:42:52,335 --> 00:42:54,571
here to try
the viral Chile Relleno Burrito
702
00:42:54,738 --> 00:42:56,807
that Boyle Heights residents
swear by.
703
00:42:56,974 --> 00:42:59,943
And get this,
it's served out of a car wash.
704
00:43:00,110 --> 00:43:00,978
Here I go.
705
00:43:01,978 --> 00:43:04,615
Mm. Mm.
706
00:43:05,615 --> 00:43:06,617
Oh, my God.
707
00:43:07,651 --> 00:43:08,552
Mm.
708
00:43:34,912 --> 00:43:38,381
Shoulder, shoulder.
Nice. Shoulder.
709
00:43:38,548 --> 00:43:42,986
And other side. Good. Plie.
710
00:43:43,153 --> 00:43:45,788
Arms. Six, seven, eight.
711
00:43:45,955 --> 00:43:51,695
Arm. And here.
Drama. Let's go. Good.
712
00:43:54,130 --> 00:43:59,403
Shoulder, shoulder, look.
Walk around yourselves.
713
00:44:09,312 --> 00:44:10,714
One, two, three, four.
714
00:44:10,881 --> 00:44:12,882
Shoulder, shoulder,
shoulder, and melt.
715
00:44:13,049 --> 00:44:14,184
Ooh, nice.
716
00:44:14,351 --> 00:44:16,587
And up, and down,
and up, let's go. And back.
717
00:44:17,821 --> 00:44:20,824
Up. Look up. One, two.
You know this.
718
00:44:20,991 --> 00:44:23,693
Five, six, seven, eight.
Turn one. Nice.
719
00:44:24,594 --> 00:44:28,631
Six, seven, you go.
Nice. Coming forward.
720
00:44:28,798 --> 00:44:31,634
Seven, and one,
two, three, five.
721
00:44:31,801 --> 00:44:32,703
Your turn.
722
00:44:32,870 --> 00:44:35,438
And one, two, three,
four, five, six.
723
00:44:35,605 --> 00:44:39,609
Arm up. Arm, arm.
Five, six, seven, up, eight.
724
00:44:39,743 --> 00:44:41,545
One, two, down, up.
725
00:44:42,713 --> 00:44:43,814
Hold it, one.
726
00:44:44,914 --> 00:44:47,451
Five, nice. Nice.
727
00:44:48,318 --> 00:44:50,087
Pump it out. Pump, pump.
728
00:44:50,754 --> 00:44:53,023
More pelvis, Maddie.
Less up here.
729
00:44:53,190 --> 00:44:54,857
Seven, eight.
730
00:44:55,024 --> 00:44:57,928
One, two, three.
Nice. Five, six, seven.
731
00:44:58,094 --> 00:45:02,365
Shoulder on, and on,
and out, and out, and boom.
732
00:45:02,532 --> 00:45:07,837
This way. To the side.
And front, and front, and side.
733
00:45:08,004 --> 00:45:12,676
Around, and walk, and walk,
and walk, and walk, and walk.
734
00:45:12,843 --> 00:45:15,111
Give me heads.
Five, six, seven, eight.
735
00:45:15,311 --> 00:45:18,514
Disperse!
736
00:45:18,681 --> 00:45:19,783
Two weeks
from the big presentation.
737
00:45:19,950 --> 00:45:21,017
Don't remind me.
738
00:45:21,184 --> 00:45:22,485
Come on,
you've got this in the bag.
739
00:45:22,652 --> 00:45:25,722
Plus, Emily's whole approach
seems totally half-assed to me.
740
00:45:25,889 --> 00:45:27,324
I don't know,
I think it sounds like
741
00:45:27,491 --> 00:45:29,192
impossibly cool,
effortless Emily.
742
00:45:29,359 --> 00:45:31,494
And once again, I look like
the try-hard Susie Homemaker.
743
00:45:31,661 --> 00:45:33,931
- You care. It's cool.
- It's pathetic.
744
00:45:35,799 --> 00:45:38,134
Five. And snap,
and snap, and push.
745
00:45:39,135 --> 00:45:42,338
And go. And go to the pose.
And pose. And pose.
746
00:45:42,505 --> 00:45:44,040
- What's happening, Maddie?
- I'm...
747
00:45:44,207 --> 00:45:46,910
Take a break.
Here we go. Five, six...
748
00:45:51,948 --> 00:45:53,116
You okay, Maddie?
749
00:45:53,883 --> 00:45:56,152
Yeah, I'm just...
I'm just a little lightheaded.
750
00:45:57,053 --> 00:45:59,056
Did you eat anything
before class?
751
00:46:00,390 --> 00:46:03,894
- Yeah, but...
- Oh, right, right.
752
00:46:05,728 --> 00:46:08,265
Four, five,
get ready, six, seven, eight.
753
00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:11,468
One, two, three, and four.
Come forward, come forward.
754
00:46:11,635 --> 00:46:13,137
- Sit this one out, mama.
- No.
755
00:46:15,071 --> 00:46:16,840
One, two. Let's go.
756
00:46:19,376 --> 00:46:21,177
Three, four. Keep going.
757
00:46:21,378 --> 00:46:23,780
And kick. One, two, three,
and four, five.
758
00:46:23,947 --> 00:46:25,616
Come on, come on, forward.
759
00:46:26,817 --> 00:46:28,619
Let's go, let's go, let's go.
760
00:46:29,852 --> 00:46:34,758
Let's go. Continue.
Five, six. Five, six.
761
00:46:35,425 --> 00:46:38,762
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight.
762
00:46:38,928 --> 00:46:41,999
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight.
763
00:46:42,165 --> 00:46:45,569
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight.
764
00:46:45,736 --> 00:46:47,871
One, two, three.
You gotta move, mama.
765
00:46:48,038 --> 00:46:50,774
Seven, eight...
766
00:46:50,941 --> 00:46:52,309
Five, six, seven, eight.
767
00:46:52,475 --> 00:46:54,011
- You okay?
-One, two, three, four,
768
00:46:54,177 --> 00:46:57,180
five, six, seven, let's go.
And one, two, three.
769
00:46:57,347 --> 00:46:59,282
And arms. Up.
770
00:46:59,449 --> 00:47:01,685
Let's go.
771
00:47:02,819 --> 00:47:05,022
Finish it.
Let's go, Maddie.
772
00:47:06,356 --> 00:47:09,425
We know this.
And five, six, seven, eight.
773
00:47:09,592 --> 00:47:11,994
One, two, three, four.
774
00:47:12,161 --> 00:47:15,299
Seven, eight. Three, and hands.
775
00:47:19,802 --> 00:47:21,037
Okay.
776
00:47:28,144 --> 00:47:30,613
Let's go.
And circle, and circle.
777
00:47:30,780 --> 00:47:34,917
Reach, and reach, and reach, go.
Five, six, seven.
778
00:47:35,084 --> 00:47:38,222
Disperse! Continue, six, seven.
779
00:47:39,189 --> 00:47:42,793
Maddie!
780
00:47:52,001 --> 00:47:53,903
And walk, and walk.
781
00:47:54,070 --> 00:47:54,938
Maddie?
782
00:48:28,071 --> 00:48:32,209
Maddie, baby,
what happened?
783
00:48:32,376 --> 00:48:35,379
Cardiac arrest.
784
00:48:35,545 --> 00:48:36,780
Oh, my God.
785
00:48:36,947 --> 00:48:39,549
Is... Is everything okay
with the baby?
786
00:48:39,715 --> 00:48:41,885
Would you two mind stepping out
for a moment?
787
00:48:42,052 --> 00:48:43,720
I need to speak
to Maddie privately.
788
00:48:43,886 --> 00:48:44,921
I...
789
00:48:45,622 --> 00:48:49,259
Okay. Um, Maddie,
I'll be right back, okay?
790
00:48:49,425 --> 00:48:50,394
Don't worry.
791
00:49:03,907 --> 00:49:06,410
Maddie, are you bulimic?
792
00:49:10,813 --> 00:49:12,182
Is that the one where you...
793
00:49:13,016 --> 00:49:16,185
don't eat food,
or you do eat food, but then...
794
00:49:16,352 --> 00:49:17,955
You're far too young
for cardiac arrest.
795
00:49:18,121 --> 00:49:20,923
Your potassium levels
are alarmingly low.
796
00:49:21,090 --> 00:49:23,125
You have a swollen jaw,
bleeding gums,
797
00:49:23,292 --> 00:49:26,129
and... teeth marks
on your knuckles.
798
00:49:26,296 --> 00:49:28,298
Well, frankly,
it's none of your business.
799
00:49:28,932 --> 00:49:30,767
Maddie,
this is Dr. Kronenfeld.
800
00:49:30,934 --> 00:49:31,835
He's a psychiatrist
801
00:49:32,002 --> 00:49:33,836
who specializes
in eating disorders.
802
00:49:34,003 --> 00:49:34,971
Nice to meet you, Maddie.
803
00:49:35,138 --> 00:49:37,207
Lovely to meet you,
Dr. Kronenfeld,
804
00:49:37,374 --> 00:49:39,276
but I'm actually
on my way out, so...
805
00:49:39,443 --> 00:49:42,045
Maddie, you could have
died today
806
00:49:42,212 --> 00:49:44,481
had the paramedics
not shown up on time.
807
00:49:45,482 --> 00:49:48,351
Any more exercise
and you're at risk of SCD,
808
00:49:48,518 --> 00:49:49,953
Sudden Cardiac Death.
809
00:49:50,453 --> 00:49:51,588
Any more vomiting,
810
00:49:51,755 --> 00:49:53,857
and you're at risk
of rupturing your stomach,
811
00:49:54,023 --> 00:49:56,025
- or your esophagus.
- I'll get it under control.
812
00:49:56,526 --> 00:49:57,994
I did it before,
and I'll do it again.
813
00:49:58,161 --> 00:50:01,331
You relapsed before,
and you'll relapse again.
814
00:50:01,998 --> 00:50:03,667
I strongly advise
that you undergo
815
00:50:03,834 --> 00:50:05,702
the eating disorder
in-patient program
816
00:50:05,869 --> 00:50:07,837
that I run
out of Presbyterian Hospital.
817
00:50:08,004 --> 00:50:09,239
For how long?
818
00:50:09,406 --> 00:50:10,640
Dr. Kronenfeld:
At least six weeks.
819
00:50:10,941 --> 00:50:13,510
But I have the most important
work event of my life in two.
820
00:50:13,677 --> 00:50:15,712
Hmm. What is it you do?
821
00:50:19,048 --> 00:50:21,952
I... I'm a recipe developer
at GourMaybe.
822
00:50:24,554 --> 00:50:25,689
Dr. Kronenfeld: Maddie...
823
00:50:26,956 --> 00:50:28,190
I don't think I need to explain
824
00:50:28,357 --> 00:50:29,692
why returning to your job
right now
825
00:50:29,859 --> 00:50:31,661
would be uniquely high risk.
826
00:50:49,345 --> 00:50:51,848
They're
letting you go home early?
827
00:50:52,015 --> 00:50:53,884
Dr. Kronenfeld: Maddie's
admitting herself...
828
00:50:57,554 --> 00:50:59,423
I'm not coming home right now.
829
00:51:01,657 --> 00:51:02,658
They are taking me
830
00:51:02,825 --> 00:51:04,828
to an inpatient
treatment program.
831
00:51:04,994 --> 00:51:07,264
For what?
832
00:51:13,102 --> 00:51:14,004
Jake...
833
00:51:15,939 --> 00:51:18,575
I suffer from bulimia nervosa.
834
00:51:19,475 --> 00:51:20,510
What?
835
00:51:20,677 --> 00:51:22,479
I throw up my food, Jake.
836
00:51:24,414 --> 00:51:26,616
I need you to go home
and pack me a bag.
837
00:51:30,754 --> 00:51:31,955
Why didn't you tell me?
838
00:51:33,022 --> 00:51:34,458
Because you thought
I was perfect.
839
00:51:49,238 --> 00:51:51,241
And what room
do we have assigned for Maddie?
840
00:51:51,408 --> 00:51:52,942
Mm...
841
00:51:53,109 --> 00:51:55,312
I'm having trouble
making it out. Uh...
842
00:51:55,479 --> 00:51:58,048
Well, honey, why
aren't you wearing your glasses?
843
00:51:58,181 --> 00:52:00,917
They're so tight
across the bridge of my nose.
844
00:52:04,721 --> 00:52:08,191
Okay, we have her
in room 17 with Julie.
845
00:52:08,358 --> 00:52:10,827
They're just moving out
the last of Catherine's stuff.
846
00:52:10,994 --> 00:52:12,161
That is such a sad thing.
847
00:52:12,328 --> 00:52:14,664
Right, right. Thank you, Shawna.
848
00:52:23,773 --> 00:52:25,341
No! No!
849
00:52:25,508 --> 00:52:27,343
Get your hands off her,
damn it!
850
00:52:28,778 --> 00:52:30,913
Oh, Lord, these three.
851
00:52:31,080 --> 00:52:32,348
What?
852
00:52:32,515 --> 00:52:33,649
It's that girl from the videos.
853
00:52:33,816 --> 00:52:35,285
How do they know you?
854
00:52:35,818 --> 00:52:36,820
I'm a chef.
855
00:52:36,987 --> 00:52:39,622
The GourMaybe girl
has an eating disorder?
856
00:52:39,789 --> 00:52:41,291
What a fucking shocker!
857
00:52:50,332 --> 00:52:51,500
Here's your room.
858
00:52:51,667 --> 00:52:53,403
I need to confiscate your phone.
859
00:52:53,570 --> 00:52:54,537
Why?
860
00:52:54,704 --> 00:52:56,673
We can't have y'all
on social media.
861
00:52:56,839 --> 00:52:59,809
Bathing suits, cooking videos.
You get it.
862
00:53:00,376 --> 00:53:02,678
You can use the landline
whenever you want, though.
863
00:53:03,312 --> 00:53:05,181
And you're welcome to decorate
your side of the room
864
00:53:05,348 --> 00:53:06,583
like your roommate did.
865
00:53:09,952 --> 00:53:11,988
This program is
for adults, right?
866
00:53:12,155 --> 00:53:13,389
Mm-hmm.
867
00:53:13,656 --> 00:53:16,693
Is today the day that I get
to meet my new roomie?
868
00:53:16,859 --> 00:53:18,261
Oh, my God.
869
00:53:18,427 --> 00:53:20,997
You're the most beautiful girl
I've ever seen.
870
00:53:21,164 --> 00:53:22,131
Thank you.
871
00:53:22,264 --> 00:53:24,200
- I'm Maddie.
- I'm Julie.
872
00:53:24,367 --> 00:53:26,803
I have a feeling
we're going to be fast friends.
873
00:53:26,969 --> 00:53:28,071
Now, Maddie,
you have to help me
874
00:53:28,238 --> 00:53:29,406
keep an eye on her.
875
00:53:29,572 --> 00:53:32,241
This one likes to exercise
when no one's looking.
876
00:53:32,408 --> 00:53:35,178
Exercise is strictly forbidden
while in treatment.
877
00:53:35,345 --> 00:53:38,148
Especially if you have
a weak heart like me.
878
00:53:39,448 --> 00:53:42,218
Okay I can't hold it in anymore.
879
00:53:42,384 --> 00:53:45,588
If you need to use the bathroom,
ask someone on the staff
880
00:53:45,755 --> 00:53:47,023
and we'll come
and unlock it for you.
881
00:53:53,996 --> 00:53:55,631
And you have to sing
at the top of your lungs
882
00:53:55,831 --> 00:53:57,366
- while you're in there.
- Why?
883
00:53:57,533 --> 00:53:59,535
How else we gonna know
you not puking?
884
00:54:06,576 --> 00:54:10,914
If they want us to eat so bad,
why is the food gray?
885
00:54:11,481 --> 00:54:14,751
You don't like mashed potatoes?
They're my favorite.
886
00:54:16,018 --> 00:54:17,253
When we get out of here, Julie,
887
00:54:17,420 --> 00:54:19,055
I'm gonna make you
potato gratin.
888
00:54:19,222 --> 00:54:20,890
I don't know
what that is.
889
00:54:21,757 --> 00:54:22,659
Hey, Julie.
890
00:54:23,426 --> 00:54:24,794
Your crush is coming over.
891
00:54:24,961 --> 00:54:26,629
Yeah, you should finally
make your move.
892
00:54:26,796 --> 00:54:28,664
I told you guys,
I'm not ready yet.
893
00:54:28,864 --> 00:54:31,034
I want the timing to be perfect.
894
00:54:31,200 --> 00:54:32,234
Hi, ladies.
895
00:54:32,401 --> 00:54:33,570
- Hi, Nurse Kelly.
- Hi.
896
00:54:33,736 --> 00:54:34,670
Hi, Nurse Kelly.
897
00:54:34,870 --> 00:54:36,572
Maddie, how are you settling in?
898
00:54:36,739 --> 00:54:38,408
Um, I don't eat meat.
899
00:54:38,975 --> 00:54:40,476
- Uh-huh.
- No, no, really.
900
00:54:40,643 --> 00:54:42,344
I told the doctors in my intake.
901
00:54:42,511 --> 00:54:43,446
Why don't you eat meat, Maddie?
902
00:54:43,613 --> 00:54:45,748
Um, ethical reasons.
903
00:54:45,915 --> 00:54:47,116
Why not just go all the way
904
00:54:47,250 --> 00:54:48,652
and be vegan?
905
00:54:48,818 --> 00:54:50,486
I'll look into
a vegetarian option shortly.
906
00:54:50,653 --> 00:54:52,989
No one leaves the dining room
until their plates are clean.
907
00:54:53,156 --> 00:54:54,757
We've also instated
nightly inspections
908
00:54:54,924 --> 00:54:57,426
of your rooms because
of the pudding cups we found
909
00:54:57,593 --> 00:54:59,129
in Brittany's trash
this morning.
910
00:55:00,129 --> 00:55:01,797
I like your shirt, Nurse Kelly.
911
00:55:01,964 --> 00:55:03,433
Thank you, Julie.
It's Paul Smith.
912
00:55:03,599 --> 00:55:04,667
I got it online.
913
00:55:08,270 --> 00:55:09,439
What's so funny?
914
00:55:11,707 --> 00:55:14,077
♪ Happy birthday to you... ♪
915
00:55:14,244 --> 00:55:16,145
- Oh, no, oh, no, oh, no.
-It's okay, Amanda.
916
00:55:16,345 --> 00:55:19,115
♪ Happy birthday to you... ♪
917
00:55:19,281 --> 00:55:20,383
What's going on?
918
00:55:20,550 --> 00:55:22,452
On your birthday,
they get you a cupcake.
919
00:55:22,652 --> 00:55:24,487
♪ Happy birthday, dear Amanda ♪
920
00:55:24,687 --> 00:55:29,459
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
921
00:55:31,660 --> 00:55:33,029
Thank you, guys.
922
00:55:35,098 --> 00:55:36,099
Can I do half?
923
00:55:36,566 --> 00:55:38,668
You gotta do
the whole thing, baby.
924
00:56:01,023 --> 00:56:03,126
-Hello?
- Hi, Jake.
925
00:56:05,061 --> 00:56:06,129
Are you okay?
926
00:56:07,496 --> 00:56:08,365
Um...
927
00:56:09,966 --> 00:56:11,434
I'm a little scared.
928
00:56:12,535 --> 00:56:16,706
- You?
-Um... I'm confused.
929
00:56:17,440 --> 00:56:18,341
I know.
930
00:56:19,575 --> 00:56:21,544
Hey, I heard
they grant special privileges
931
00:56:21,711 --> 00:56:22,979
based on your improvement.
932
00:56:23,146 --> 00:56:24,714
Maybe they'll let me out
for The Boar.
933
00:56:25,448 --> 00:56:30,787
Maddie, I just want you
and the baby to be healthy.
934
00:56:33,422 --> 00:56:34,457
Me too.
935
00:56:37,560 --> 00:56:38,995
Hey, I should go to bed.
936
00:56:39,162 --> 00:56:41,263
Apparently they wake us up
really early here.
937
00:56:42,098 --> 00:56:43,767
I love you so much, Maddie.
938
00:56:43,933 --> 00:56:45,168
I love you, too.
939
00:56:54,576 --> 00:56:56,746
Is he nice?
940
00:56:57,713 --> 00:56:59,249
Very.
941
00:57:00,282 --> 00:57:01,384
Like Nurse Kelly.
942
00:57:02,218 --> 00:57:04,454
Maybe we can all go
on a double date sometime.
943
00:57:05,788 --> 00:57:08,258
- I would love that, Julie.
- Oh.
944
00:57:21,204 --> 00:57:23,606
Who would like to start?
945
00:57:27,376 --> 00:57:28,812
Okay.
946
00:57:29,512 --> 00:57:30,512
Well...
947
00:57:30,679 --> 00:57:32,649
I would love to hear from Maddie
948
00:57:32,815 --> 00:57:35,418
about how her first week
of treatment is going.
949
00:57:39,388 --> 00:57:40,590
Um...
950
00:57:42,525 --> 00:57:43,526
it's been pretty good.
951
00:57:44,927 --> 00:57:46,930
So... So, yeah.
952
00:57:48,797 --> 00:57:50,166
I'm surprised to hear that.
953
00:57:51,134 --> 00:57:53,269
When I met you in the hospital,
you seemed determined
954
00:57:53,436 --> 00:57:54,837
to figure it out on your own.
955
00:57:55,438 --> 00:57:58,107
And yet, ultimately,
you agreed to come here.
956
00:57:58,641 --> 00:57:59,943
Why is that, Maddie?
957
00:58:01,276 --> 00:58:02,445
I...
958
00:58:02,612 --> 00:58:04,613
I know I was
a little resistant at first,
959
00:58:04,780 --> 00:58:07,249
but the staff here
has been so wonderful,
960
00:58:07,416 --> 00:58:09,785
and the other women
so inspiring.
961
00:58:14,691 --> 00:58:16,125
You didn't answer my question.
962
00:58:16,959 --> 00:58:18,795
Why did you agree
to come here, Maddie?
963
00:58:23,132 --> 00:58:26,936
Well, you made it seem
like I was going to,
964
00:58:27,570 --> 00:58:30,373
um, die.
965
00:58:33,809 --> 00:58:35,011
So you want to live?
966
00:58:36,746 --> 00:58:40,283
Of course
I want to live.
967
00:58:40,883 --> 00:58:42,185
Look, when I...
968
00:58:43,218 --> 00:58:44,487
purge, uh...
969
00:58:45,021 --> 00:58:46,655
it's just a compulsive
stress response
970
00:58:46,822 --> 00:58:48,057
from when I was younger,
971
00:58:48,224 --> 00:58:51,227
and I've been experiencing
a lot of stress at work.
972
00:58:51,394 --> 00:58:54,130
I sincerely don't have
some sort of
973
00:58:54,297 --> 00:58:56,165
tortured relationship to food.
974
00:58:56,332 --> 00:58:59,301
In fact, I'm quite
passionate about food.
975
00:58:59,468 --> 00:59:02,238
Well, Maddie,
I think that's beautiful.
976
00:59:03,072 --> 00:59:05,207
Oh, my God,
I'm so sorry.
977
00:59:05,374 --> 00:59:08,344
I always do that.
978
00:59:12,781 --> 00:59:14,950
I think you have an extremely
tortured relationship
979
00:59:15,151 --> 00:59:16,919
- with food, Maddie.
- Well, Connie,
980
00:59:17,086 --> 00:59:18,388
we just met, so...
981
00:59:22,158 --> 00:59:24,860
I think it just got sublimated
into a career.
982
00:59:26,528 --> 00:59:28,330
Like the little boy
that cut the tails off of dogs
983
00:59:28,497 --> 00:59:30,099
and grew up to become a surgeon.
984
00:59:30,899 --> 00:59:32,501
The question is,
985
00:59:32,635 --> 00:59:35,805
why are you so tortured
about food?
986
00:59:37,272 --> 00:59:38,808
If it were really just
about losing weight,
987
00:59:38,974 --> 00:59:42,545
you could go on Ozempic
or starve yourself, like me.
988
00:59:43,946 --> 00:59:46,883
But there's something else,
isn't there?
989
00:59:47,917 --> 00:59:49,385
Something you're
running away from.
990
00:59:50,253 --> 00:59:53,122
When I was a little girl,
it was all those gymnasts on TV
991
00:59:53,289 --> 00:59:54,557
that drove me to it.
992
00:59:55,258 --> 00:59:58,394
With their slicked-back ponies,
not one hair out of place.
993
00:59:59,395 --> 01:00:01,531
But now
it's girls like you, Maddie.
994
01:00:02,598 --> 01:00:04,400
The no-makeup makeup look.
995
01:00:05,368 --> 01:00:07,670
The hair falling
in your face just so.
996
01:00:09,238 --> 01:00:11,373
But I think those pesky
little flyaways
997
01:00:11,540 --> 01:00:12,809
are trying to tell us something.
998
01:00:15,211 --> 01:00:18,548
I think you actually want
to lose control, Maddie.
999
01:00:20,249 --> 01:00:22,919
Those are your fingers
down your throat, after all.
1000
01:00:24,286 --> 01:00:25,154
Yours.
1001
01:00:30,793 --> 01:00:31,960
Dr. Kronenfeld:
Her passion for food
1002
01:00:32,127 --> 01:00:34,664
has an almost
moral sheen to it.
1003
01:00:34,831 --> 01:00:36,866
It's possible that to her,
at some level,
1004
01:00:37,032 --> 01:00:40,269
the bulimia
is an extension of that purity.
1005
01:00:40,436 --> 01:00:43,572
A saint-like sacrifice
that Maddie makes for all of us.
1006
01:00:43,705 --> 01:00:45,941
A correction for the excesses
of our culture.
1007
01:00:46,108 --> 01:00:48,944
Or Maddie the chef
is the good girl
1008
01:00:49,111 --> 01:00:51,446
and Maddie the bulimic
is the bad girl,
1009
01:00:51,613 --> 01:00:53,949
having some sort
of delayed adolescence.
1010
01:00:54,116 --> 01:00:56,185
Sounds like you should talk
to the mom.
1011
01:00:56,351 --> 01:00:58,787
I've tried,
but Maddie absolutely refuses
1012
01:00:58,954 --> 01:01:00,523
to do a session with her.
1013
01:01:00,690 --> 01:01:02,458
It's actually refreshing
to see a crack
1014
01:01:02,625 --> 01:01:04,894
in the veneer
of her usual agreeability.
1015
01:01:05,061 --> 01:01:07,463
Well, at least she has
some kind of respect for the rules around here.
1016
01:01:07,630 --> 01:01:08,764
I'll take Sandra Dee
1017
01:01:08,964 --> 01:01:10,733
over the goddamn pink ladies
any day of the week.
1018
01:01:13,202 --> 01:01:15,070
I did not throw up my dinner!
1019
01:01:15,270 --> 01:01:17,707
Why was your blood pressure
so low this morning, Brittany?
1020
01:01:17,874 --> 01:01:20,276
You heard me singing
in the bathroom!
1021
01:01:20,443 --> 01:01:22,311
Sure, and I smelled what was
under your bed this morning.
1022
01:01:22,477 --> 01:01:24,647
- I know your tricks.
- Fuck off!
1023
01:01:26,381 --> 01:01:27,617
Your turn, Amanda.
1024
01:01:29,084 --> 01:01:31,086
How do you expect us
to stop obsessing
1025
01:01:31,286 --> 01:01:33,189
over our weight when
you weigh us every morning?
1026
01:01:33,355 --> 01:01:35,324
Do you have
a Bachelor of Science, Amanda?
1027
01:01:35,658 --> 01:01:36,526
Or do I?
1028
01:01:37,226 --> 01:01:38,294
I forget.
1029
01:01:42,865 --> 01:01:44,467
What was it like
when he had his arms
1030
01:01:44,634 --> 01:01:47,736
wrapped around you?
1031
01:01:47,903 --> 01:01:49,071
Guys, please.
1032
01:01:49,639 --> 01:01:50,873
No, no, no.
We're not being mean.
1033
01:01:51,039 --> 01:01:52,641
-I get it. He's hot.
-He's hot.
1034
01:01:52,774 --> 01:01:54,009
-He's hot.
-He's hot.
1035
01:01:54,176 --> 01:01:56,078
He's really kind.
1036
01:01:56,245 --> 01:01:58,514
He's so in touch with his,
like, femininity.
1037
01:01:58,681 --> 01:02:00,182
- Feminine side.
- Yeah.
1038
01:02:00,349 --> 01:02:02,051
-Good morning, ladies.
- Don't listen to them, okay?
1039
01:02:02,217 --> 01:02:04,019
We have a new patient
joining us today.
1040
01:02:04,186 --> 01:02:05,888
Everybody, say hi to Deena.
1041
01:02:06,722 --> 01:02:08,524
Hi, Deena.
1042
01:02:12,327 --> 01:02:14,396
They totally bought it, Maddie.
1043
01:02:14,563 --> 01:02:15,564
- Bought what?
- My whole
1044
01:02:15,731 --> 01:02:17,433
eating disorder sob story.
1045
01:02:17,600 --> 01:02:20,036
Took a fistful of beta blockers
that lower my heart rate.
1046
01:02:20,203 --> 01:02:21,270
Ooh, and I learned
that bulimics,
1047
01:02:21,437 --> 01:02:23,038
their teeth get
all fucked-up and discolored
1048
01:02:23,205 --> 01:02:24,573
- from the stomach acid.
- Uh-huh.
1049
01:02:24,740 --> 01:02:26,575
So this chick that I used to
bang out in the valley, right?
1050
01:02:26,742 --> 01:02:28,144
She does makeup for film and TV.
1051
01:02:28,344 --> 01:02:32,515
I had to dye my teeth brown.
She fucking killed it. Look.
1052
01:02:37,586 --> 01:02:41,123
Hi, Maddie. Hi, Deena.
How's your first day going?
1053
01:02:41,290 --> 01:02:43,292
Oh, man.
Are those mashed potatoes?
1054
01:02:43,459 --> 01:02:44,927
Yeah, they're my favorite.
1055
01:02:45,094 --> 01:02:46,962
Those totally trigger
my food stuff.
1056
01:02:47,129 --> 01:02:49,532
I might launch
into binge mode 3,000.
1057
01:02:49,699 --> 01:02:51,133
Do you mind
sitting somewhere else?
1058
01:02:51,300 --> 01:02:54,403
Oh. Okay.
1059
01:02:56,972 --> 01:02:58,174
Okay.
1060
01:02:59,008 --> 01:03:00,743
But why did you come here?
1061
01:03:00,910 --> 01:03:02,444
Couldn't let you go
through this alone.
1062
01:03:02,611 --> 01:03:03,780
I got you.
1063
01:03:07,183 --> 01:03:08,784
Deena, I can't miss
that presentation.
1064
01:03:08,951 --> 01:03:10,620
There's my girl.
1065
01:03:10,786 --> 01:03:12,621
I have a whole plan,
but I need your help.
1066
01:03:12,788 --> 01:03:14,023
Anything. Anything at all.
1067
01:03:14,190 --> 01:03:16,325
Well, aren't you
two getting along famously?
1068
01:03:17,493 --> 01:03:19,562
It's like I've known her
forever and ever.
1069
01:03:24,500 --> 01:03:27,002
But first we have to
get the staff off our backs.
1070
01:03:27,169 --> 01:03:29,137
I obviously don't want
to jeopardize his job,
1071
01:03:29,304 --> 01:03:31,040
so I'm going to wait until
after I leave treatment
1072
01:03:31,207 --> 01:03:32,608
to tell him about my feelings.
1073
01:03:32,774 --> 01:03:34,677
We're talking about
the same Nurse Kelly, right?
1074
01:03:34,843 --> 01:03:37,513
Yep. The one
with the beautiful eyelashes.
1075
01:03:39,582 --> 01:03:41,651
Connie and Amanda's room. Now.
1076
01:03:43,419 --> 01:03:45,654
Ew, ew, ew.
1077
01:03:45,821 --> 01:03:48,123
See, that's the same face
they make in porn now.
1078
01:03:48,290 --> 01:03:49,492
How'd you get the phone?
1079
01:03:49,658 --> 01:03:51,527
Amanda swiped it
from Nurse Hammond's coat
1080
01:03:51,694 --> 01:03:53,295
she left on the back
of the chair.
1081
01:03:53,462 --> 01:03:56,499
I have a whole stealing thing.
I'm gonna put it back.
1082
01:03:59,968 --> 01:04:02,238
You all came
to Dr. Kronenfeld's program
1083
01:04:02,438 --> 01:04:04,840
because your lives
had gotten out of control.
1084
01:04:05,541 --> 01:04:07,143
And the rules
that we enforce here
1085
01:04:07,310 --> 01:04:08,444
are to give that control
back to you.
1086
01:04:08,611 --> 01:04:10,045
They're for your safety.
1087
01:04:10,212 --> 01:04:11,647
So when I receive word
1088
01:04:12,614 --> 01:04:14,950
that there are people
disrespecting those rules,
1089
01:04:15,484 --> 01:04:17,053
it breaks my heart.
1090
01:04:18,387 --> 01:04:19,522
Nurse Hammond?
1091
01:04:22,824 --> 01:04:24,227
Who took my phone?
1092
01:04:35,003 --> 01:04:36,339
It was my idea.
1093
01:04:37,506 --> 01:04:38,574
I acted alone,
1094
01:04:38,740 --> 01:04:41,010
and I'm sorry
if I caused anyone any harm.
1095
01:04:43,011 --> 01:04:45,080
I can't let Connie do that.
1096
01:04:45,247 --> 01:04:46,848
Um, it may have been her idea,
1097
01:04:47,015 --> 01:04:49,719
but I was the one
that took the actual phone.
1098
01:04:50,752 --> 01:04:52,355
And I apologize
to the community.
1099
01:04:56,926 --> 01:04:58,861
I was with Amanda
when she took the phone.
1100
01:04:59,028 --> 01:05:00,529
I could have stopped her
1101
01:05:00,696 --> 01:05:05,501
and instead I egged her on and,
yeah, I'm sorry.
1102
01:05:10,138 --> 01:05:12,608
We asked you to come forward
and tell the truth.
1103
01:05:12,775 --> 01:05:14,276
And Connie,
you said you acted alone,
1104
01:05:14,443 --> 01:05:15,444
which we now know is a lie.
1105
01:05:15,611 --> 01:05:16,912
I was taking the fall
for my friend.
1106
01:05:17,079 --> 01:05:18,214
Connie, I have the stick.
1107
01:05:18,981 --> 01:05:20,449
Nurse Hammond and I
have no choice
1108
01:05:20,616 --> 01:05:21,717
but to enforce a curfew.
1109
01:05:21,884 --> 01:05:23,252
You'll regain
1110
01:05:23,419 --> 01:05:24,754
your evening privileges
once we can get a handle
1111
01:05:24,920 --> 01:05:27,556
on what the hell
is happening in our community.
1112
01:05:33,161 --> 01:05:34,330
Yes, Maddie.
1113
01:05:38,801 --> 01:05:40,302
I'm not quite sure
what's going on here
1114
01:05:40,469 --> 01:05:42,137
at Presbyterian Hospital
either.
1115
01:05:42,971 --> 01:05:45,174
All I can really do
is look at my own part
1116
01:05:45,341 --> 01:05:47,743
in this larger erosion
of trust.
1117
01:05:48,644 --> 01:05:50,112
I'll admit it.
1118
01:05:50,279 --> 01:05:52,281
I've been going
through the motions here,
1119
01:05:52,948 --> 01:05:54,650
doing the bare minimum
just to make it look
1120
01:05:54,817 --> 01:05:57,486
like I was getting better.
But...
1121
01:05:58,253 --> 01:06:00,222
if we want things
to change around here,
1122
01:06:00,823 --> 01:06:03,559
we have to show up,
not just for ourselves,
1123
01:06:03,726 --> 01:06:05,594
but for each other.
1124
01:06:07,663 --> 01:06:08,931
Today...
1125
01:06:12,300 --> 01:06:14,937
I'm recommitting
to recovery, but...
1126
01:06:16,271 --> 01:06:17,273
I can't do it alone.
1127
01:06:18,908 --> 01:06:19,775
Who's with me?
1128
01:06:24,146 --> 01:06:25,147
Nice.
1129
01:06:28,650 --> 01:06:30,953
Awesome, guys. Cool.
1130
01:06:31,120 --> 01:06:33,588
Good night, Nurse Kelly.
Good night, Nurse Hammond.
1131
01:06:33,755 --> 01:06:34,924
Good night, Deena.
1132
01:06:35,124 --> 01:06:36,625
We really appreciate you
and Maddie coming forward
1133
01:06:36,791 --> 01:06:37,893
about my phone.
1134
01:06:38,060 --> 01:06:39,962
We'll come back and check
on you in the morning.
1135
01:06:51,073 --> 01:06:53,375
Hi, Brittany.
Everyone settled in here?
1136
01:06:53,542 --> 01:06:56,012
Snuggled in like
fucking animals at the zoo!
1137
01:06:56,145 --> 01:06:57,513
I see that integrity
isn't rewarded here.
1138
01:06:57,680 --> 01:06:58,714
I see that dignity
isn't rewarded here.
1139
01:06:58,881 --> 01:06:59,882
-Brittany.
-I mean,
1140
01:07:00,049 --> 01:07:01,817
this is a fucking
surveillance state, man.
1141
01:07:01,984 --> 01:07:03,318
Once you get
out of here, Brittany,
1142
01:07:03,485 --> 01:07:05,387
you can make your own rules.
1143
01:07:05,554 --> 01:07:07,656
Other than that,
stay in the room.
1144
01:07:07,823 --> 01:07:10,892
I'm like over it. I'm over it
at this point with her.
1145
01:07:11,026 --> 01:07:12,528
- It's too much.
-Those three bitches.
1146
01:07:28,410 --> 01:07:29,678
What's up, Shawna?
1147
01:07:29,844 --> 01:07:33,015
Deena, you're supposed
to be in your room.
1148
01:07:33,182 --> 01:07:35,084
You know what's
been really bugging me?
1149
01:07:35,250 --> 01:07:36,551
You're such a fox,
1150
01:07:36,785 --> 01:07:38,988
but these glasses are totally
the wrong shape for your face.
1151
01:07:39,121 --> 01:07:41,757
Oh. Well,
they are a little tight
1152
01:07:41,923 --> 01:07:44,360
- across the bridge of my nose.
- Let me see.
1153
01:07:45,827 --> 01:07:49,398
Oh, yeah.
This is an easy fix.
1154
01:07:49,565 --> 01:07:51,133
I have a glasses repair kit
in my room.
1155
01:07:51,300 --> 01:07:54,402
- Deena, I can't see.
- Damn, Shawna.
1156
01:07:54,569 --> 01:07:56,237
You should really
consider contacts.
1157
01:07:56,404 --> 01:07:58,307
You would clean up in my world.
1158
01:08:14,089 --> 01:08:15,091
Maddie.
1159
01:08:16,792 --> 01:08:17,960
Where are you going?
1160
01:08:18,126 --> 01:08:19,794
I have to do something.
I'll be back in the morning.
1161
01:08:19,961 --> 01:08:21,797
But it's against the rules.
1162
01:08:21,964 --> 01:08:25,267
I know. Look, I wouldn't do this
if it weren't really important.
1163
01:08:25,433 --> 01:08:27,602
You have to promise not
to tell anyone, okay?
1164
01:08:27,769 --> 01:08:29,472
I don't like this, Maddie.
1165
01:08:33,943 --> 01:08:35,711
Julie, you're not supposed
to exercise.
1166
01:08:35,878 --> 01:08:38,948
So you can
break the rules, but I can't?
1167
01:08:41,049 --> 01:08:43,919
Six, seven, eight...
1168
01:08:44,586 --> 01:08:46,622
...nine, ten.
1169
01:08:48,289 --> 01:08:50,526
Hey! Who is that?
1170
01:08:51,760 --> 01:08:53,629
It's past curfew.
1171
01:08:54,363 --> 01:08:55,264
Nurse Hammond!
1172
01:08:55,431 --> 01:08:57,599
It's Beverlee
from Oncology.
1173
01:08:57,766 --> 01:08:59,501
Got off
on the wrong floor again.
1174
01:09:00,102 --> 01:09:01,637
Been working nights, you know.
1175
01:09:03,806 --> 01:09:06,075
Beverlee from Oncology.
1176
01:09:07,776 --> 01:09:08,744
Hmm.
1177
01:09:12,481 --> 01:09:13,782
Nurse Hammond.
1178
01:09:14,549 --> 01:09:17,652
She said she was
from the Oncology unit.
1179
01:09:18,186 --> 01:09:22,023
God damn it, Shawna!
There is no Oncology unit.
1180
01:09:22,624 --> 01:09:24,960
Maddie!
1181
01:09:27,195 --> 01:09:28,497
Pop it...
1182
01:09:34,469 --> 01:09:36,772
Maddie!
1183
01:09:40,142 --> 01:09:41,210
Oh, fuck!
1184
01:09:53,789 --> 01:09:54,857
Yes!
1185
01:09:59,695 --> 01:10:01,263
- Hey.
- Hey.
1186
01:10:02,264 --> 01:10:04,967
- I've missed you so much.
- I've missed you, too.
1187
01:10:05,667 --> 01:10:07,569
The doctors must feel really
good about your progress
1188
01:10:07,736 --> 01:10:08,970
to let you do this tonight.
1189
01:10:09,704 --> 01:10:13,142
- Maybe you can come home soon.
- Yeah, for sure.
1190
01:10:14,976 --> 01:10:17,045
How's our little boy
or girl or whatever?
1191
01:10:17,212 --> 01:10:19,247
Sorry.
1192
01:10:19,414 --> 01:10:21,383
Sorry, I'm just nervous
about tonight, that's all.
1193
01:10:21,550 --> 01:10:22,517
We should probably get going.
1194
01:10:22,684 --> 01:10:23,618
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
1195
01:10:23,819 --> 01:10:25,286
I got everything on the list.
1196
01:10:25,820 --> 01:10:27,356
Hopefully I didn't screw it up.
1197
01:10:40,035 --> 01:10:42,904
Hi, come in.
Come in. I'm Jake.
1198
01:10:43,071 --> 01:10:44,172
I'm Dan. This is Chelsea.
1199
01:10:44,306 --> 01:10:45,740
- Hi.
-Nice to meet you.
1200
01:10:45,907 --> 01:10:47,643
A late-night meal
from Maddie Ralph.
1201
01:10:47,843 --> 01:10:48,977
Am I dreaming?
1202
01:10:49,144 --> 01:10:50,545
Late-night and home-cooked.
1203
01:10:50,712 --> 01:10:53,882
- It's bold. It's personal.
- Like your show.
1204
01:10:54,048 --> 01:10:55,617
I should just probably get out
in front of this
1205
01:10:55,784 --> 01:10:56,885
before I embarrass myself,
1206
01:10:57,052 --> 01:10:58,854
but I'm a huge fan of The Boar.
1207
01:10:59,020 --> 01:11:00,222
Hey, we are too.
1208
01:11:00,389 --> 01:11:02,191
It's not as cocky as it sounds.
1209
01:11:02,858 --> 01:11:04,326
All we do is
give those guys the freedom
1210
01:11:04,493 --> 01:11:05,593
to do whatever they want.
1211
01:11:05,760 --> 01:11:06,862
It certainly pays off.
1212
01:11:07,029 --> 01:11:07,963
Can I interest you guys
1213
01:11:08,130 --> 01:11:10,065
in some orange wine
from Georgia?
1214
01:11:10,232 --> 01:11:12,267
And that's not the state,
that's the country.
1215
01:11:12,434 --> 01:11:14,336
We know.
And sure, that sounds great.
1216
01:11:14,502 --> 01:11:15,804
Coming right up.
1217
01:11:19,641 --> 01:11:22,477
- And how's it going in here?
- Where's my Fly By Jing?
1218
01:11:23,145 --> 01:11:24,613
I don't know what that is.
1219
01:11:24,780 --> 01:11:27,049
It's a brand of Chili Crisp,
woman-owned.
1220
01:11:27,216 --> 01:11:30,152
There was some right here
on the shelf before I, um...
1221
01:11:30,319 --> 01:11:31,753
Hey, hey, hey.
1222
01:11:31,920 --> 01:11:33,054
If this is too much for you,
1223
01:11:33,221 --> 01:11:35,356
we can tell them
I got all the wrong groceries
1224
01:11:35,523 --> 01:11:37,359
and we can reschedule, okay?
1225
01:11:37,525 --> 01:11:39,495
Your health is more important
than this job, Maddie.
1226
01:11:39,662 --> 01:11:43,098
I'm fine, Jake. I promise.
I need to go drop the halloumi.
1227
01:11:49,304 --> 01:11:50,539
Hi, guys.
1228
01:11:50,706 --> 01:11:52,507
No, no, no. Stay seated.
1229
01:11:52,674 --> 01:11:54,810
I'm covered in turmeric.
I don't want to stain you.
1230
01:11:56,511 --> 01:12:00,281
Uh, this is a grilled halloumi
with a yuzu kosho crisp.
1231
01:12:01,282 --> 01:12:03,452
- Enjoy.
- Thanks for having us, Maddie.
1232
01:12:03,619 --> 01:12:04,819
Oh, it's my pleasure.
1233
01:12:04,986 --> 01:12:07,523
Not a lot of videos lately.
We've missed you.
1234
01:12:09,257 --> 01:12:12,727
Yeah, I've, um, I've taken
a step back at GourMaybe
1235
01:12:12,927 --> 01:12:14,296
- to really...
- Mm.
1236
01:12:15,030 --> 01:12:16,665
...reconnect with
what I love about food,
1237
01:12:16,832 --> 01:12:20,335
which I hope you guys feel
in what I made for you tonight.
1238
01:12:20,501 --> 01:12:21,804
Mm.
1239
01:12:25,307 --> 01:12:27,643
Take it away. Tell the story.
1240
01:12:29,845 --> 01:12:34,116
Um, I know it all started
with pulled pork on your show,
1241
01:12:34,283 --> 01:12:37,185
but I gotta be me.
1242
01:12:37,352 --> 01:12:39,722
Hey, that's what we asked for.
1243
01:12:41,689 --> 01:12:42,691
Um...
1244
01:12:45,360 --> 01:12:47,061
Tonight I've made for you, um,
1245
01:12:47,228 --> 01:12:48,363
something
that brings together...
1246
01:12:49,764 --> 01:12:51,767
...my favorite styles
of cooking, East Asian,
1247
01:12:51,967 --> 01:12:53,569
Middle Eastern,
even a little Italian,
1248
01:12:53,736 --> 01:12:55,971
all through
a new Californian lens.
1249
01:12:56,137 --> 01:12:58,173
Mm.
1250
01:12:58,340 --> 01:13:02,010
It has all the punch
and swagger of the show,
1251
01:13:02,177 --> 01:13:04,212
but with a woman's touch.
1252
01:13:04,379 --> 01:13:05,547
It's not lost on me
1253
01:13:05,713 --> 01:13:07,415
what an incredible opportunity
it would be
1254
01:13:07,582 --> 01:13:09,918
to feature innovative
vegetarian cooking
1255
01:13:10,085 --> 01:13:11,353
on an international platform.
1256
01:13:11,520 --> 01:13:13,255
I'm just gonna
grab one of these.
1257
01:13:17,626 --> 01:13:19,895
Mm.
1258
01:13:22,164 --> 01:13:24,867
Can I ask what brought you
to vegetarianism?
1259
01:13:29,237 --> 01:13:30,406
Ethical reasons.
1260
01:14:00,902 --> 01:14:03,138
I'm not kidding. Sometimes I'll
do the sessions from my car.
1261
01:14:08,209 --> 01:14:10,078
It's really helped
with executive functioning.
1262
01:14:10,812 --> 01:14:12,947
That's amazing.
1263
01:14:13,114 --> 01:14:16,084
- And shame stuff.
- Uh, I should sign up for sure.
1264
01:14:24,659 --> 01:14:25,960
Whoa, Jake.
1265
01:14:26,127 --> 01:14:27,663
What's the story
behind this table?
1266
01:14:28,396 --> 01:14:29,264
Um...
1267
01:14:30,699 --> 01:14:33,769
Uh, a buddy of mine
from Middlebury does
1268
01:14:33,935 --> 01:14:36,438
does these live-edge walnut
countertops and tables.
1269
01:14:37,005 --> 01:14:38,440
Middlebury's
in Vermont, right?
1270
01:14:38,606 --> 01:14:40,709
-Yeah.
- You know, we're actually doing
1271
01:14:40,875 --> 01:14:42,711
a bottle episode... dairy farm
around Burlington.
1272
01:14:42,844 --> 01:14:45,279
Cool, cool.
Wait, what kind of episode?
1273
01:14:45,413 --> 01:14:46,548
Well, bottle episode
is when the...
1274
01:14:49,451 --> 01:14:52,788
Maddie?
Hey, Maddie, come here. Hey.
1275
01:14:53,322 --> 01:14:55,290
Call 9-1-1, please.
Hey, come here.
1276
01:14:56,190 --> 01:14:57,192
Call 9-1-1.
1277
01:15:02,831 --> 01:15:03,965
We successfully repaired
1278
01:15:04,132 --> 01:15:05,534
the gastrointestinal
perforation,
1279
01:15:05,701 --> 01:15:07,301
but she's going to need to be
1280
01:15:07,468 --> 01:15:09,103
on a very strict diet
of mild foods
1281
01:15:09,270 --> 01:15:11,105
for the next month
to fully recover.
1282
01:15:11,272 --> 01:15:13,976
White rice, white fish, no salt.
1283
01:15:15,477 --> 01:15:17,312
Will that be enough nutrients
for the baby?
1284
01:15:19,915 --> 01:15:20,816
Uh,
1285
01:15:21,583 --> 01:15:23,551
there's nothing in her chart
about a pregnancy.
1286
01:15:27,555 --> 01:15:28,523
What?
1287
01:15:29,224 --> 01:15:30,759
Dr. Kronenfeld: Yeah, I...
1288
01:15:30,892 --> 01:15:33,060
There's no way we would have
done the surgery
1289
01:15:33,227 --> 01:15:34,863
and not seen that come up, uh...
1290
01:15:52,680 --> 01:15:53,681
Damn, Maddie.
1291
01:15:53,848 --> 01:15:55,417
I didn't know you had it in you.
1292
01:15:55,617 --> 01:15:57,052
Respect.
1293
01:16:00,488 --> 01:16:01,523
Psst.
1294
01:16:01,690 --> 01:16:02,925
How did it go?
1295
01:16:19,708 --> 01:16:20,942
Where's Julie?
1296
01:16:21,109 --> 01:16:22,710
Why don't you get
some rest, honey,
1297
01:16:22,877 --> 01:16:24,212
and we'll talk later.
1298
01:16:29,050 --> 01:16:29,918
Where's Julie?
1299
01:16:37,058 --> 01:16:37,926
Where's Julie?
1300
01:16:42,964 --> 01:16:44,099
Julie's dead.
1301
01:16:44,266 --> 01:16:46,201
God damn it, Amanda!
1302
01:16:48,070 --> 01:16:50,305
Where's Julie?
1303
01:16:51,373 --> 01:16:52,673
Heart failure.
1304
01:16:52,840 --> 01:16:54,843
I didn't want to tell you
in this state.
1305
01:16:59,214 --> 01:17:01,249
- It's my fault.
- No, it's not, babe.
1306
01:17:01,983 --> 01:17:04,620
She wasn't supposed to exercise.
1307
01:17:05,921 --> 01:17:07,856
It's my fault.
1308
01:17:10,125 --> 01:17:13,295
She wasn't supposed
to exercise.
1309
01:17:27,575 --> 01:17:28,443
Hey Maddie,
1310
01:17:29,344 --> 01:17:31,146
how would you like
a new roommate?
1311
01:17:35,683 --> 01:17:36,851
Hey!
1312
01:17:37,018 --> 01:17:38,419
At least you got
to explain your vision
1313
01:17:38,586 --> 01:17:39,620
for the series.
1314
01:17:39,787 --> 01:17:41,356
And I bet they'll come
crawling back
1315
01:17:41,523 --> 01:17:43,592
once they realize
Emily is a total fraud.
1316
01:17:45,193 --> 01:17:47,128
No fucking way!
1317
01:17:47,295 --> 01:17:50,798
Oh, my God,
that chick was delusional!
1318
01:17:50,998 --> 01:17:54,503
Oh! Oh!
1319
01:17:56,271 --> 01:17:57,838
Oh, God.
1320
01:17:58,606 --> 01:18:00,509
Take that out
of the trash, Deena.
1321
01:18:05,814 --> 01:18:07,883
Why do you care?
1322
01:18:08,850 --> 01:18:10,752
Because she was my friend.
1323
01:18:11,920 --> 01:18:12,887
So am I.
1324
01:18:13,521 --> 01:18:15,557
She needed to be here.
1325
01:18:16,324 --> 01:18:17,492
You don't.
1326
01:18:18,493 --> 01:18:19,461
Yes, I do.
1327
01:18:20,661 --> 01:18:21,697
Why?
1328
01:18:23,665 --> 01:18:24,833
Because you need me!
1329
01:18:26,067 --> 01:18:30,538
Fuck! Fuck!
1330
01:18:30,705 --> 01:18:32,874
What the hell is going
on in here? Deena?
1331
01:18:33,041 --> 01:18:34,476
Deena? Deena?
1332
01:18:34,643 --> 01:18:37,179
Deena, what is going on?
What is happening?
1333
01:18:37,345 --> 01:18:40,582
- Deena? Deena? Deena? Deena?
- Maddie. Maddie.
1334
01:19:13,982 --> 01:19:16,251
Are you
sure this is a good idea?
1335
01:19:16,417 --> 01:19:18,153
It's a fine idea. Let's go.
1336
01:19:24,725 --> 01:19:25,961
Where did you get these?
1337
01:19:27,629 --> 01:19:28,830
I made them in art class.
1338
01:19:29,597 --> 01:19:31,566
Is that a goblin?
1339
01:19:33,001 --> 01:19:34,236
Self-portrait.
1340
01:19:38,406 --> 01:19:40,174
I call in the goddesses
1341
01:19:40,942 --> 01:19:45,146
North, South, East, and West,
1342
01:19:45,747 --> 01:19:48,182
on the day
that Julie dropped her body
1343
01:19:48,382 --> 01:19:50,485
and became a part
of the Sky God.
1344
01:19:52,754 --> 01:19:54,656
Her body will become
the earth...
1345
01:19:55,856 --> 01:19:56,858
nutrients...
1346
01:19:58,092 --> 01:19:59,594
to feed other people.
1347
01:20:04,833 --> 01:20:06,668
I'll go. Um...
1348
01:20:08,102 --> 01:20:09,838
You drove me crazy, Julie.
1349
01:20:12,773 --> 01:20:16,877
Your existence
was inconvenient to me...
1350
01:20:17,445 --> 01:20:19,314
because you were
the living embodiment
1351
01:20:19,481 --> 01:20:22,017
of the parts of myself
I've tried to obliterate.
1352
01:20:23,618 --> 01:20:25,120
The part of me that has hope.
1353
01:20:26,654 --> 01:20:28,623
The part of me
that wants a friend.
1354
01:20:31,826 --> 01:20:33,528
You were the bravest one
of us all.
1355
01:20:37,532 --> 01:20:39,868
I'm so sorry
I was mean to you, Julie.
1356
01:20:41,669 --> 01:20:44,306
I do a lot of things
without thinking.
1357
01:20:45,339 --> 01:20:47,442
Like when I stole your notebook.
1358
01:20:47,609 --> 01:20:50,845
It was fucked-up of me
to read what you wrote,
1359
01:20:51,012 --> 01:20:54,015
but you said such nice things
about all of us.
1360
01:20:56,050 --> 01:20:58,019
I can't believe
we'll never get to hang out.
1361
01:21:07,027 --> 01:21:07,896
Maddie.
1362
01:21:12,466 --> 01:21:13,401
Okay.
1363
01:21:16,237 --> 01:21:17,105
Julie...
1364
01:21:19,407 --> 01:21:22,477
you always love to swap secrets
after lights out.
1365
01:21:25,346 --> 01:21:26,815
So here's one last one.
1366
01:21:29,751 --> 01:21:31,686
I never wanted
to be a mother.
1367
01:21:33,655 --> 01:21:35,857
I'm too scared to do
to a child...
1368
01:21:37,425 --> 01:21:39,127
what my mom did to me.
1369
01:21:41,095 --> 01:21:44,766
But when I met you,
I wanted to protect you.
1370
01:21:46,567 --> 01:21:48,203
And I failed to protect you.
1371
01:21:50,405 --> 01:21:51,973
I guess that's
what it's all about.
1372
01:21:54,976 --> 01:21:56,744
It would break my heart
to see you do the things
1373
01:21:56,911 --> 01:21:58,880
to your body that I do to mine.
1374
01:22:03,317 --> 01:22:04,218
Okay.
1375
01:22:05,319 --> 01:22:09,891
We release ourselves from those
who have left this plane
1376
01:22:10,425 --> 01:22:11,927
and let them walk...
1377
01:22:13,094 --> 01:22:16,230
the blessed gardens
of Summerland.
1378
01:22:19,133 --> 01:22:20,601
We love you, Julie.
1379
01:22:20,768 --> 01:22:22,137
We love you, Julie.
1380
01:22:40,288 --> 01:22:43,157
It's always the good students
who stay after class.
1381
01:22:43,991 --> 01:22:45,460
Bring her in.
1382
01:23:16,657 --> 01:23:17,925
Dr. Kronenfeld:
Hello, Ms. Ralph.
1383
01:23:18,059 --> 01:23:19,694
I'm Dr. Kronenfeld.
1384
01:23:19,861 --> 01:23:21,496
Thank you so much
for joining us today.
1385
01:23:21,663 --> 01:23:24,665
Please call me Beverlee.
Two Es.
1386
01:23:24,832 --> 01:23:26,167
What's a handsome doctor
like you doing
1387
01:23:26,334 --> 01:23:27,702
in a dump like this?
1388
01:23:27,835 --> 01:23:30,071
Shouldn't you be out in Malibu
at some private treatment center
1389
01:23:30,238 --> 01:23:32,607
with all those
desperate actresses?
1390
01:23:33,708 --> 01:23:35,843
Dr. Kronenfeld: I'm not sure
what you're implying.
1391
01:23:36,010 --> 01:23:38,213
We take your daughter's health
very seriously here.
1392
01:23:43,818 --> 01:23:46,320
Fuck!
1393
01:23:46,487 --> 01:23:48,723
- Are you all right?
- It's just my damn knee.
1394
01:23:48,890 --> 01:23:50,658
Don't worry, my other parts
work just fine.
1395
01:23:51,993 --> 01:23:54,828
Oh, I was teasing, Madison.
Good God.
1396
01:23:54,995 --> 01:23:56,731
I've upset Sister Maddie.
1397
01:23:56,898 --> 01:23:59,200
Now I must repent.
1398
01:23:59,366 --> 01:24:02,002
It's an interesting time
to be cracking jokes, Ms. Ralph.
1399
01:24:02,169 --> 01:24:05,173
Oh, forgive me. This all just
seems really dramatic.
1400
01:24:05,339 --> 01:24:07,441
In the past month and a half,
your daughter has gone
1401
01:24:07,641 --> 01:24:10,277
into cardiac arrest
and has ruptured her stomach
1402
01:24:10,444 --> 01:24:11,879
as a result of her bulimia.
1403
01:24:12,046 --> 01:24:13,814
And I suppose
that's all my fault?
1404
01:24:13,981 --> 01:24:15,449
We're not here to assign blame.
1405
01:24:16,116 --> 01:24:18,652
We're here to identify
unconscious patterns
1406
01:24:18,819 --> 01:24:22,023
from Maddie's childhood,
to bring them up to the surface
1407
01:24:22,189 --> 01:24:24,091
so that she can have
more control over them
1408
01:24:24,258 --> 01:24:25,492
in the future.
1409
01:24:25,659 --> 01:24:28,829
As you were obviously
a key player during that time,
1410
01:24:28,996 --> 01:24:31,933
your sincere cooperation today
could be very beneficial
1411
01:24:32,099 --> 01:24:33,901
- to your daughter.
- Well, I'm here, aren't I?
1412
01:24:34,068 --> 01:24:35,670
Yes, you are.
1413
01:24:36,704 --> 01:24:39,140
- That takes courage.
- Let's not get maudlin'.
1414
01:24:39,707 --> 01:24:41,075
First question.
1415
01:24:41,242 --> 01:24:43,745
Okay. Can you tell me
about Maddie's father?
1416
01:24:43,912 --> 01:24:45,713
He's out of the picture.
1417
01:24:45,880 --> 01:24:47,615
Can you be more specific?
1418
01:24:48,482 --> 01:24:51,286
Um, Madison was unplanned.
1419
01:24:51,453 --> 01:24:53,888
I had her when I was very,
very young, as you can see.
1420
01:24:54,055 --> 01:24:58,326
Her father and I
were desperately in love.
1421
01:24:58,493 --> 01:25:00,127
It was very carnal.
1422
01:25:00,294 --> 01:25:02,563
And then Madison was born
and he bolted.
1423
01:25:02,730 --> 01:25:05,332
- That's not the whole truth.
- She speaks.
1424
01:25:05,499 --> 01:25:07,401
Hello, my little Pollyanna.
1425
01:25:07,568 --> 01:25:09,103
What is she leaving out, Maddie?
1426
01:25:09,270 --> 01:25:11,172
What happened to you
when you were pregnant?
1427
01:25:11,339 --> 01:25:14,642
Okay, that actually
did slip my mind.
1428
01:25:14,808 --> 01:25:16,577
Um... It... Look,
1429
01:25:16,744 --> 01:25:19,613
I gained an unusual amount
of weight in my pregnancy.
1430
01:25:19,780 --> 01:25:22,716
God, after Maddie was born,
I just could not get it off.
1431
01:25:22,883 --> 01:25:24,419
He was repulsed by us.
1432
01:25:24,919 --> 01:25:27,956
We never got married,
so I gave Maddie my last name.
1433
01:25:28,489 --> 01:25:30,325
Ralph.
1434
01:25:30,492 --> 01:25:33,894
Dr. Kronenfeld: I noticed
you said he was repulsed by us.
1435
01:25:34,528 --> 01:25:37,164
Did you somehow feel
that both you and Maddie
1436
01:25:37,331 --> 01:25:39,167
were responsible
for her father leaving?
1437
01:25:39,334 --> 01:25:41,002
You'll be thrilled to know
I did not mean to say that,
1438
01:25:41,168 --> 01:25:42,603
Dr. Kronenfeld.
1439
01:25:42,970 --> 01:25:44,906
Oh, let's do
a round of Rorschach.
1440
01:25:45,072 --> 01:25:46,908
A little free association,
get the words flowing.
1441
01:25:47,074 --> 01:25:49,277
Please don't make a mockery
of his work, Mother.
1442
01:25:49,443 --> 01:25:50,377
Thank you, Maddie.
1443
01:25:50,945 --> 01:25:54,014
But let's play her game.
1444
01:25:54,181 --> 01:25:55,616
I'll say a word,
and then, Beverlee,
1445
01:25:55,783 --> 01:25:57,518
you say
whatever word comes to mind.
1446
01:25:57,685 --> 01:25:59,454
I'm so excited. Go.
1447
01:25:59,988 --> 01:26:01,288
- Mm. Light.
- Bright.
1448
01:26:01,455 --> 01:26:02,523
- Bicycle.
- Boys.
1449
01:26:02,689 --> 01:26:04,759
- Water.
- Pure, clean, reborn.
1450
01:26:04,926 --> 01:26:05,793
- Pen.
- Cock.
1451
01:26:05,960 --> 01:26:06,861
- Plane.
- Still cock.
1452
01:26:07,027 --> 01:26:08,029
- Dr. Kronenfeld: Cat.
- Hairy.
1453
01:26:08,196 --> 01:26:10,398
- Meat.
- No!
1454
01:26:11,832 --> 01:26:15,236
Maddie?
Maddie, are you okay?
1455
01:26:15,769 --> 01:26:18,406
What is it about meat
that caused you to scream?
1456
01:26:21,008 --> 01:26:22,977
Take your time.
1457
01:26:25,213 --> 01:26:27,182
They delivered the cooler
on Fridays.
1458
01:26:28,116 --> 01:26:29,817
A cooler full of frozen meat.
1459
01:26:31,052 --> 01:26:33,554
I remember loving the way
the dry ice made a cloud
1460
01:26:33,721 --> 01:26:35,256
of smoke when I opened it.
1461
01:26:40,595 --> 01:26:43,697
{\an8}Mother made us go
on the Atkins diet,
1462
01:26:43,864 --> 01:26:45,900
the keto of the early 2000s.
1463
01:26:46,067 --> 01:26:47,902
A rose by any other name.
1464
01:26:48,069 --> 01:26:49,404
Keep going, Maddie.
1465
01:26:49,571 --> 01:26:52,906
She would make me cook the meat
while she smoked marijuana
1466
01:26:53,073 --> 01:26:54,542
and watched court TV.
1467
01:26:55,576 --> 01:26:57,245
I felt useful.
1468
01:26:57,912 --> 01:27:00,114
We would gorge on the meat
every night...
1469
01:27:01,082 --> 01:27:03,984
so full that
sometimes we'd fall asleep
1470
01:27:04,151 --> 01:27:05,687
next to each other on the couch.
1471
01:27:06,554 --> 01:27:08,089
She'd wake me up
the next morning
1472
01:27:08,256 --> 01:27:09,590
to do aerobics with her.
1473
01:27:10,825 --> 01:27:13,727
5:00 a.m. on weekdays
every morning before school.
1474
01:27:13,861 --> 01:27:14,995
Ah!
1475
01:27:15,129 --> 01:27:17,731
I introduced my child
to a high-protein diet
1476
01:27:17,898 --> 01:27:19,534
and regular exercise.
Lock me up.
1477
01:27:19,701 --> 01:27:22,069
We did a million diets together
when I was a little girl,
1478
01:27:22,236 --> 01:27:23,538
but this one was different...
1479
01:27:24,405 --> 01:27:26,908
because I was 12 and...
1480
01:27:28,842 --> 01:27:29,911
I had started...
1481
01:27:31,545 --> 01:27:32,412
developing.
1482
01:27:33,313 --> 01:27:36,551
The other girls at school made
fun of my body and so she...
1483
01:27:39,120 --> 01:27:40,288
so she taught me...
1484
01:27:42,023 --> 01:27:43,258
how to purge.
1485
01:27:49,329 --> 01:27:50,598
Well I guess we figured it out.
1486
01:27:50,764 --> 01:27:52,033
Sit down, Mother.
1487
01:27:56,737 --> 01:27:58,139
I would cook the meat,
1488
01:27:58,305 --> 01:28:01,108
eat the meat,
throw up the meat, work out.
1489
01:28:01,675 --> 01:28:03,677
I was the only middle-schooler
I knew with gout,
1490
01:28:03,877 --> 01:28:06,614
that's for sure.
1491
01:28:09,984 --> 01:28:11,285
But then she added
one more step
1492
01:28:11,452 --> 01:28:13,254
to this endless cycle of hell.
1493
01:28:14,455 --> 01:28:16,624
She got a fake ID for me,
1494
01:28:16,791 --> 01:28:18,993
from a girlfriend of hers
in Oceanside...
1495
01:28:20,161 --> 01:28:21,963
and she took me to bars.
1496
01:28:23,964 --> 01:28:25,366
The men would leer at me...
1497
01:28:27,268 --> 01:28:29,337
say disgusting things to me.
1498
01:28:33,140 --> 01:28:34,709
And when they would touch me...
1499
01:28:36,010 --> 01:28:37,845
only then
would she step in.
1500
01:28:39,313 --> 01:28:41,849
But not because she wanted
to protect me.
1501
01:28:44,118 --> 01:28:46,020
She would take them
to the bathroom...
1502
01:28:49,824 --> 01:28:51,492
...and finish them off.
1503
01:28:54,528 --> 01:28:58,499
She used me to procure men
for her...
1504
01:28:58,665 --> 01:29:01,169
...and told me it was
so I could have a father.
1505
01:29:02,369 --> 01:29:05,273
But I never needed
the love of a father.
1506
01:29:07,641 --> 01:29:09,543
I needed your love,
Mommy.
1507
01:29:10,544 --> 01:29:12,380
Careful, Maddie.
You're hurting my knee.
1508
01:29:19,186 --> 01:29:20,888
This is all I can do for today.
1509
01:29:28,596 --> 01:29:30,231
We're making progress, Maddie.
1510
01:29:31,231 --> 01:29:32,300
We're making progress.
1511
01:29:53,921 --> 01:29:56,457
- Hey, ladies.
-Hi, Nurse Hammond.
1512
01:29:56,624 --> 01:29:58,458
Okay, we can all agree
1513
01:29:58,625 --> 01:30:00,594
that the food here sucks, right?
1514
01:30:00,761 --> 01:30:01,862
Hmm.
1515
01:30:02,029 --> 01:30:03,931
But I came up
with a brilliant idea.
1516
01:30:04,098 --> 01:30:06,801
How about Maddie
cook us lunch today?
1517
01:30:10,337 --> 01:30:11,872
Can I have help in the kitchen?
1518
01:30:12,039 --> 01:30:13,241
You sure can.
1519
01:30:51,145 --> 01:30:52,680
You're the real deal, Maddie.
1520
01:30:55,783 --> 01:30:57,118
Can you pass the salad?
1521
01:30:58,285 --> 01:30:59,287
Thanks.
1522
01:31:02,089 --> 01:31:03,490
You really think I'm ready, Doc?
1523
01:31:04,057 --> 01:31:05,493
Only you can know that, Maddie.
1524
01:31:06,126 --> 01:31:07,128
Well, I do know
1525
01:31:07,295 --> 01:31:09,664
that I wanna get the hell
out of here.
1526
01:31:11,398 --> 01:31:12,500
Dr. Kronenfeld: Fair enough.
1527
01:31:13,634 --> 01:31:14,769
We're gonna miss you.
1528
01:31:16,136 --> 01:31:18,105
Hey, maybe I could come cook
for the patients again.
1529
01:31:18,272 --> 01:31:20,307
You know,
work with them in the kitchen.
1530
01:31:20,474 --> 01:31:21,642
We would love that.
1531
01:31:22,310 --> 01:31:24,111
But only if
that feels safe for you.
1532
01:31:33,520 --> 01:31:34,655
She's ready.
1533
01:31:40,194 --> 01:31:41,662
Thank you both so much.
1534
01:31:42,263 --> 01:31:43,464
Bye now.
1535
01:31:43,597 --> 01:31:45,700
We're so proud of you, Maddie.
1536
01:31:53,340 --> 01:31:54,407
Promise we'll see
each other
1537
01:31:54,541 --> 01:31:55,742
when you get out of here?
1538
01:31:55,909 --> 01:31:57,879
- Promise.
-Okay.
1539
01:31:59,846 --> 01:32:01,349
I'm going to miss you, guys.
1540
01:32:02,349 --> 01:32:03,551
I'm ready to go, too.
1541
01:32:05,386 --> 01:32:07,054
- Deena, babe.
-Deena.
1542
01:32:07,788 --> 01:32:09,123
This is Dr. Piggott
1543
01:32:09,289 --> 01:32:11,359
from the Behavioral Health
wing at Presbyterian.
1544
01:32:11,526 --> 01:32:12,726
She wants to ask you
a few questions
1545
01:32:12,893 --> 01:32:14,195
about your mental health
history.
1546
01:32:14,362 --> 01:32:16,230
We can't help you here,
and you know that.
1547
01:32:16,397 --> 01:32:19,300
I don't need any help.
No, Maddie can vouch for me.
1548
01:32:22,303 --> 01:32:23,504
You got this, Deena.
1549
01:32:25,072 --> 01:32:27,008
You're the toughest person
I know.
1550
01:32:32,046 --> 01:32:33,347
Maddie!
1551
01:32:34,381 --> 01:32:35,583
I'll see you in dance class?
1552
01:32:49,430 --> 01:32:50,364
Maddie!
1553
01:32:53,567 --> 01:32:55,036
Maddie!
1554
01:32:55,902 --> 01:32:58,406
Maddie! Maddie!
1555
01:33:08,215 --> 01:33:09,216
Mm.
1556
01:33:10,417 --> 01:33:12,019
Fig and Mortar, my favorite.
1557
01:33:12,887 --> 01:33:15,189
- Thank you so much.
- Of course.
1558
01:33:28,435 --> 01:33:30,771
You're allowed to be angry
with me, Jake.
1559
01:33:52,860 --> 01:33:53,961
I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
1560
01:34:17,318 --> 01:34:19,253
Hi. Is Maddie here?
1561
01:34:20,054 --> 01:34:21,222
Why?
1562
01:34:21,489 --> 01:34:23,624
I have something for her.
I could just leave it with you.
1563
01:34:24,157 --> 01:34:25,192
Jake, it's okay.
1564
01:34:30,330 --> 01:34:32,799
- Hi, Emily.
- Hi, Maddie.
1565
01:34:32,966 --> 01:34:34,201
Congratulations on The Boar.
1566
01:34:34,368 --> 01:34:36,036
They're really lucky
to have you.
1567
01:34:36,203 --> 01:34:38,005
Yeah, I got that one
fair and square.
1568
01:34:39,540 --> 01:34:41,475
You think you'll come back
to GourMaybe?
1569
01:34:43,711 --> 01:34:45,545
I don't know
what I want anymore.
1570
01:34:46,380 --> 01:34:48,449
I'm certainly not ready
to see Zach.
1571
01:34:49,382 --> 01:34:50,351
He's gone.
1572
01:34:50,918 --> 01:34:54,021
Condé Nast found out
about our involvement.
1573
01:34:55,222 --> 01:34:56,090
Wow.
1574
01:34:57,625 --> 01:34:59,860
I made you tahini
chocolate chip cookies.
1575
01:35:02,563 --> 01:35:05,165
Bringing you food
was maybe weird, sorry.
1576
01:35:05,332 --> 01:35:07,168
No, it's really kind of you.
1577
01:35:08,368 --> 01:35:10,371
You know, I used to make
this recipe all the time
1578
01:35:10,538 --> 01:35:12,039
before I worked at GourMaybe.
1579
01:35:12,739 --> 01:35:13,774
I was a big fan.
1580
01:35:14,375 --> 01:35:15,943
Well, you know what they say.
1581
01:35:16,110 --> 01:35:17,244
Never meet your heroes.
1582
01:35:17,444 --> 01:35:19,846
They might be a giant cunt
to you for no reason.
1583
01:35:20,013 --> 01:35:22,183
I'll get out of your hair.
1584
01:35:25,018 --> 01:35:26,153
Hey, what changed?
1585
01:35:26,887 --> 01:35:28,355
Why so nice all of a sudden?
1586
01:35:30,424 --> 01:35:32,660
I guess I just needed
to know you weren't perfect.
1587
01:36:05,125 --> 01:36:05,992
Hey.
1588
01:36:06,626 --> 01:36:08,061
Where are you going?
1589
01:36:08,228 --> 01:36:09,230
Out for a run.
1590
01:36:10,964 --> 01:36:13,367
The doctor said it was okay
to exercise again?
1591
01:36:16,737 --> 01:36:17,605
Yes.
1592
01:36:20,473 --> 01:36:22,543
How do I know
you're telling me the truth?
1593
01:38:30,237 --> 01:38:32,873
♪ Only a little dream ♪
1594
01:38:37,410 --> 01:38:42,516
♪ To turn the world around us ♪
1595
01:38:45,252 --> 01:38:48,155
♪ Only a dream ♪
1596
01:38:52,325 --> 01:38:57,298
♪ To find what's left
That binds us ♪
1597
01:38:59,799 --> 01:39:02,870
♪ It won't be long now ♪
1598
01:39:03,604 --> 01:39:07,808
♪ It's like a song beginning ♪
1599
01:39:08,742 --> 01:39:13,880
♪ Reaching aloud to see ♪
1600
01:39:14,281 --> 01:39:21,255
♪ If only a love
Can take us there ♪
1601
01:39:22,789 --> 01:39:25,092
♪ Only a little love ♪
1602
01:39:28,929 --> 01:39:34,100
♪ If only a love can make it ♪
1603
01:39:34,501 --> 01:39:38,271
♪ To last the ages ♪
1604
01:39:38,505 --> 01:39:43,978
♪ Only you and me ♪
1605
01:39:48,014 --> 01:39:52,352
♪ Only a love ♪
1606
01:39:52,852 --> 01:39:55,356
♪ Only a love ♪
1607
01:39:58,858 --> 01:40:01,662
♪ If only a love ♪
1608
01:40:01,862 --> 01:40:08,802
♪ Can take us there ♪